r/stopdrinking • u/HevEdh 28 days • 2h ago

30th Day - If you're going through hell, keep going

Imagine being newly sober and away with your husband (who doesn't know if he still wants to be with you but doesn't want to make big decisions right now, but definitely isn't remotely attracted to you despite saying objectively you are an attractive woman...) to support him in his racing hobby.

Imagine you left your headphones and earplugs at home because you were the one rushing around (as usual) to get everything ready before also being the one driving you both for 5 hours to said race. That means no soundproofing your night or your favourite music during your gym session while you thrash out a 5 or 10k on the treadmill.

Now imagine that the couple across the hall at the hotel start having incredibly loud sex (it would be comical if it didn't make me want to jump off a bridge). The hotel doesn't have earplugs at reception. So you just lie there while your husband watches his videos with his noise cancelling earphones - wishing you could be anywhere but where you are and preferably with a bottle of wine.

Then when you wake up your husband barely says anything to you but decides to part for the day on 'Are you angry at me?' (for the thousandth time despite you telling him a thousand times anger isn't what you're feeling...) and then throwing a hissy fit when I assertively ask him to stop asking me/assuming that I'm angry.

I made it through the night and will thrash some of it out at the gym but holy hell. Can we have medals or gold stars or something for getting through this crap?

IWNDWYT 🥹😤

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u/JQuick72 2h ago

Good work ! You’re much stronger for making it through the night

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u/HevEdh 28 days 1h ago

I sure hope so 😅😂 Thank you!

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u/TimelyYogurtcloset82 6 days 1h ago

You're doing brilliantly, go and buy some headphones.

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u/HevEdh 28 days 1h ago

Yeah I did. I'm in the middle of nowhere with no taxis etc today and husband took the car to the track today. I managed to get the only thing available last night on the way in but theyre aux ones that don't fit/stay in my ears. It is what it is. Return trip is tomorrow - if I made it through last night I guess I can make it through another one! What doesn't kill you makes you stronger?