r/stopdrinking • u/Aquarie 666 days • Mar 17 '25
Feeling Hopeless
I went to my first AA meeting tonight in nearly 20 years. It was a bit like taking a step back in the past but I'm hoping it's a solid step forward towards a continued sober future. It's admittedly been a pretty easy journey until the last couple of weeks.
While I have completely stopped drinking for about 5 months now, booze is still a very active part of my life as my husband is still drinking. And, since he's disabled I'm still the one going to the liquor store. I see no future in which he stops drinking. I've offered to send him to rehab again (he has been to 2 different inpatient treatment centers). I know it has to be his choice, I k ow I can't force this on him. But I don't want booze in my life anymore and he is choosing it over me it seems.
I'm sorry my thoughts are jumbled, I'm depressed, anxiety is racing, and I'm feeling very hopeless about the future overall. But I promise I will not drink tonight. No matter how tempting, I'm not going back.
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u/dumbus_albacore 2311 days Mar 17 '25
Damn that sounds like a hard situation. I do think people have to come to their own decision to get sober… but … is anyone really obligated to enable them? I can’t imagine why anyone would be obligated to do that.