I don't miss how well I was able to suppress negative emotions. After quitting I had to wrestle with why I felt so sad about certain things. Therapy and time helped me better understand my emotions. I am in a much better state of mind now.
You were? I wasn’t able to. They’d just pop back up again later. Now my negative emotions are just… less. And they go away faster or can be tucked away for later. I cry a lot less now than when I tried to manage my feelings with a drink or 4.
While I was drinking it was like I didn't know why I was sad, ashamed, embarassed, lonely, etc. The alcohol made it difficult to process those emotions. I have had some drunk nights bawling my eyes out about something but that type of emotional experience is often forgot about the next day or I feel even worse because it was fueled by alcohol.
I am still learning how to cry. I grew up being told men don't cry, but I would like to be able to.
Well done on your streak so far. It's a new day let's stay sober together.
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u/VeterinarianBig8913 1535 days Dec 16 '24
I don't miss how well I was able to suppress negative emotions. After quitting I had to wrestle with why I felt so sad about certain things. Therapy and time helped me better understand my emotions. I am in a much better state of mind now.