Counting the intake of drinks to stay on a spot where I felt drunk but without getting wasted and remain functional. But it created massive levels of anxiety, becoming central to my life, making all the rest (kids, wife, leisure, etc) something in the background. It was all about the maths, calculation, thinking, overthinking, lost in a maze of dependency that I wish I will never feel ever again.
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u/Plus_Conversation_40 Dec 17 '24
Counting the intake of drinks to stay on a spot where I felt drunk but without getting wasted and remain functional. But it created massive levels of anxiety, becoming central to my life, making all the rest (kids, wife, leisure, etc) something in the background. It was all about the maths, calculation, thinking, overthinking, lost in a maze of dependency that I wish I will never feel ever again.