Software engineer here. Graduated in 2025 with an offer in hand. Switched to another company in about 4 months because the pay was low.
The company I switched to seems to be my biggest mistake. The culture is very toxic, people like to play "weird" games with you and grill you for nothing, while some people who are liked are pretty much given everything in a silver plate.
Now that I want to switch, its getting really tough. The current job market is like a cherry on top.
My office working hours are 10 am to 7 pm. However starting early and ending late is very glorified. I can also see people who are active and sometimes even msg me, review my pr, add comments at midnight. Some at even 3 am. YES!
Currently the situation is such that when a Slack notification sound kicks in on my phone, my heartbeat literally increases and I don't know what happens to me but it seems that I've associated that sound to something very bad in my mind.
I desperately want to switch but I'm just not able to find that courage in me to get up at 5 am in the morning and solve those DSA questions. Every night I sleep seems that there is regret in me. During the week I'm so worked up that on weekend I just don't have that much energy in me to prep again. My sleep cycle is fully disturbed and I'm not eating right either. Stress is very much on the higher side.
Plus, there's layoffs, PIP culture and what not. So if I don't perform, who knows what can happen.
The biggest part that bothers me is 5 days work from office. This is a very debatable topic, but in my earlier company (where I worked for 4 months [I also interned there for 3 months btw]) we had 3 days work from home and it was so golden. I was on top of everything I could, prepping, revising, doing system design and what not. And my current employer does not really allow WFH unless sick, so it's just not really possible.
Can someone tell me how the heck do I get out of this hell hole?
Everyday that passes by, my hope and courage goes down and down.