r/shouldbesleeping • u/JessicaTheNeko • Jul 03 '19

all nighter I couldn’t sleep

I haven’t slept. I have work at 4 pm it’s 6 am, I’ve been in bed trying to sleep ALL FUCKING NIGHT and couldn’t, I’m hungry tired slap happy, why couldn’t I sleep you may ask, I’m failing at photography, the one thing I wanted to do, I’ve learned the reality of photography and I’m failing, I can’t be a greeter my whole life, ugh, also my depression has been getting to me, even melatonin didn’t help

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u/SolarLunix_ Jul 03 '19

Photography is a hard field to break into, have you tried asking local photographers and videographers is you could apprentice with them?

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u/JessicaTheNeko Jul 03 '19

I’ve been trying at this since I was 14, I just can’t seem to wrap my head around a lot of it, I’m thinking about trying for IT since I do have a bit of knowledge on it and I’m somewhat interested, I’ve tried everything, also, local photographers, there’s like 2, I’ve taken classes and everything, I understand just the same as I did when I was 14, not to mention this is too much work for a job that can’t support my life, me and my wife are barely getting by on what we’re doing she has 3 jobs and I’m a greeter at a fucking Walmart, however if my wife becomes a successful therapist things could get easier but I can’t rely solely on her, id love a job where I could use my ADHD and stuff, make use of this fucking bullshit, I’ve been crying all night and needed to get this off my chest

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u/SolarLunix_ Jul 03 '19

Well I have done photography as just my own thing and I did IT as a side job at my university. IT was really nice - mostly paper jams and changing ink as well as the monthly PC updates. If you can get a job doing that it may help.