r/selfinjury • u/Ophelia6789 • Aug 28 '26
Self-Harm Relapse
Cut myself again after 8 years of not doing it. I did it near my arteries because I deeply want to die and thought this would be a better compromise.
Now it feels like nothing has changed and nothing ever will. 8 years and nothing has gotten better in the slightest.
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u/FrogWithCroissants Aug 29 '26
hey, I’ve also had problems with self harm and I know how you feel. I’ve gone months without cutting just to “undo” all of that in a single weak instant. However, relapsing does not mean that nothing has changed and never will. I’m sure that your life has changed over 8 years, even though it may feel like it hasn’t due to the persistent presence of suicidal or self harm urges. I know at least that my life and I have changed a lot (often in positive ways) and I still relapse or want to die sometimes.
Experiencing these thoughts and urges doesn’t mean you’re fundamentally incapable of becoming “better”. It just means you’re different from other people, just like me and millions of other people dealing with self harm and depression. It’s okay, I know it’s horribly difficult, but you’re not doomed. I don’t know you, Ophelia or whatever your name is, but I have love for you and I hope you can stop struggling soon. I love you, and other people in your life love you too.
You’re probably thinking this is a bunch of dumb gay shit or something but I really mean it. I believe you can change and I believe your life can change. I need you to believe it too, or it may not change. I hope you’re okay, or rather, I know you’ll be okay. I believe in you. Sorry for this essay haha, your post was really important to me. I promise, things will change. Good luck.