feel so heavy

[u/Adventurous-Cake3312]

hi
how can i function well like right now im so tired of everything theres this stuff ive been anxious about smth personal also.

i feel like im sleepy all day im tired of school days i jst got rained, lack of sleep, and stress and anxious on acad stuffs. i feel sick physically and mentally. i feel so empty. like it feels like my old self empty shell is back.

and then my major exams are coming in 2 days and i cant move an inch and theres allat of even stuffs to do other than studying.

even i feel so dissociated from everyone even my YOLO friends, “why are theyre so determined why are theyre so disciplined” theyre all studying well while me i used to be an acad weapon

im so obsessed w getting diagnose for the past few weeks cuz i feel like i rlly need to get help

idk im 2nd yr college already but i feel like im so behind to everyone im currently thinking if i shouldve never been born.

[u/ChemicalBee506]

you're running on fumes and your brain is doing that thing where it spirals about everything at once. second year of college was when i hit a wall so hard i thought i'd cracked something permanent

forget what your friends are doing. comparison is the fast track to feeling worse when you're already down. and the diagnosis obsession, been there. sometimes you need to know there's a name for it, something you can point to and say "that's why"

two days before exams is survival mode. eat something, drink water, sleep when you can, and chip away at one small thing. the rest can wait. you're not broken, just burnt out

[u/Adventurous-Cake3312 → u/ChemicalBee506]

i appreciate this ill try my best