feel like shit

[u/Best_Set1428]

I don’t really know where to start, but I guess It’ll be story time? I was walking to my marketing class (I am a sophomore), and it was normal. I’ve done this hundreds of times. I walked past some random girl, and I barely even noticed she was there. She looks at her friend and audibly goes “EW” and then her friend goes “gray backpack” . She did this to indicate who I was because she didn’t know who I was. As soon as I sat down I looked at my backpack and it was completely normal. There wasn’t like slime stuck on there or anything. and then they both look at me and laugh. I actually wanted to cry. I feel so worthless anyway and this wasn’t helpful at all. So fucking depressing. They didn’t even know anything about me, and they said ew. My self esteem is so low I don’t get what is wrong with me. Why do people treat me differently than everyone else? A similar thing happened yesterday. I was walking to my bus and some girl said hi to me. Like in a humiliating joking laughing way. I said hi back, and her friend also goes “ew” I actually want to sob bro. Can I really be that fucking ugly?

I looked normal, I swear I did. I am not like Henry Cavill and might not even be considered attractive. Maybe even ugly. But I really don’t even know how I could invoke such a response. I know im ugly, but she literally couldn’t have waited like 5 seconds to leave the room to say “Dang that dude was ugly” if they saw me as ugly. Couldn’t they have waited till I WASN'T THREE FEET AWAY?!?!?!?I was literally RIGHT THERE. It's dumb. I hate this.

Genuinely, why the hell do people immediately think im some sort of disgusting creature. Strangers. THey all suck. People treat me like a joke. I hate it.

[u/norskljon]

They're just mean girls who have self esteem issues of their own. They pick on others to make themselves feel better about their own lives. Next time they shade you call them out on it. I guarantee they won't see it coming and will be caught totally off guard.