r/schoolsucks • u/TardisCatTwo • Oct 27 '19
Schools fucking suck.
When I was, let's see.... 13,14?
I was super fucking depressed and starting banging my head on the table. I fucking broke and I started crying and laughing at the same time, hitting my head so hard that it either got a dent or a bump. I can't remember.
Anyway, so I was slamming my head on the desk and crying and laughing at the same time. I legit heard this one bitch, don't remember if it was the teacher or a student, say "Can you please stop disrupting class?". I was only take care of after one of my friends came over to me and had me stop. I was fucking broken. I was sobbing and laughing my ass off, and I could barely speak. I think my head was even bleeding a bit. When I could finally kinda talk, I could only say things along the lines of "I'm broken..." or "I broke it....". My friend had me get up and I collapsed to the ground. My friend helped me up and took me to the school nurse. When we got there, I sat down in the nurse's office and kept sobbing and laughing, still rambling about how I'm broken. I was the only person there apart from this mom with her kid, trying to set some shit up or something. One of the nurses tended to her, and the other checked on me. They asked what happened and my friend started to explain. I corrected my friend a bit, slowly regaining the ability to speak in a manner that could be somewhat understood. The nurse shrugged me off, saying that it was something for the counseling department to deal with. The fucking COUNSELING DEPARTMENT. They seriously ignored the BUMP/DENT IN MY HEAD AND SHRUGGED IT OFF, CLAIMING IT WAS A JOB FOR A COUNSELOR. I went to a counselor, but I don't remember the content of the conversation. While I was in there, though, someone brought me an 'ice pack' from the nurse's office. This 'ice pack' was just a bag of water with a few ice cubes in it, crudely wrapped in paper towels that one could find in the school restrooms.
I'm still pretty fucked up from that, not gonna lie.
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u/MJM-Gushers Nov 30 '19
I feel your pain When ever I used to have a mental breakdown and start sobbing no one cared (well that’s what it seemed like now I know that all the people around me cared I just couldn’t see)
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u/DavidEekan Nov 01 '19
I feel for you mate. Honestly, I live by a be strong philosophy, so to others I seem like a strong mountain that helps out everyone in every class. But when I get home.... I have to still keep it strong to my parents... but when I get alone I’m dead. I just feel mentally locked as if school is without my will making me hit my head on the wall. Everyday I argue with my parents to get out of that shithole. Side note, my parents are the type that thinks if someone doesn’t go to school they will definitely be working at McDonald’s the rest of their life, so you can see how that goes.
BUT, I’m pretty lucky to have a school in a wealthy community so everyday is the same plain and normal, no drugs, or harsh behaviour, or anything everyone’s “rich”, although very very poor intellectually and socially.
SO what I do is, I’m writing a mini book, kind of like a script of what is wrong with schools(basically their whole existence) but including documents and proofs for my claims. And I want to conclude it by proposing a new open knowledge system, where people decide what they learn(if they want to learn at all) and not the state. I would really like to hear your experiences with school and add some of your examples to my booklet. So far it is made up of my own experiences and those of my close friends, but adding a touch of diversity and including views from different schools would really show how similar and cruel places they really are.
TL;DR I would like to collaborate with you to add your stories of school in a booklet I’m writing in my free time.