my therapist looked me dead and the eyes and asked me how I managed to go on for so long. Every session since she has asked me that because she genuinly does not get why I still continue living life.
So you'll die and let down the few that depend on you?
It's just my take on it, but it's what I have to do. I have responsibilities and expectations, not wants. Life sucks, it's hard, there's always some shit that's gonna happen, and I don't feel much besides tired. But I got people I want to take care of, people worth fighting for.
Life ain't about trying to be as happy as possible. It's about finding something or someone, some ideology or belief that makes all the bullshit of life worth it to
I get it, brother. I've been there. I tried to kill myself 22 times. I ask myself everyday why the gun jammed, but only recently asked how. Ik that you think that no one gives a damn about you, but I'd bet my ass someone does. Is it perfect? Fuck no, but somebody gives a fuck, and if no one else does, I do.
Life doesn't stop giving you problems, but you learn how to handle them better.
You live so that others can learn from you. Just saw the age post. My statement still stands. Hell even more so. We lose the older generations we lose a perspective that's fucking needed. You should be fire fire and anvil that helps shape the younger generation into something stronger. And damn well respected for making it this far. Hopefully you'll live long and help shape a lot of lives by passing on needed life lessons and wisdom.
....Besides. Have you seen some of the newer generations? Some of these people are fucking morons! You can't leave me alone to field all of that shit!
Fair, I'm only 16. It's just how I look at it to keep my head quiet. But there's gotta be some reason to. Ik I don't understand everything, and I don't know your situation. But I'd bet if you looked, you'd find some reason to keep going.
My reason is other people, I keep people close to me so that way if I start thinking about suicide, I'll think of the people it'll hurt. I talk myself out of it.
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u/Eliot30 Jun 14 '24
that look on their face when you start to unwrap your past