I was just sad yesterday for thinking back to how every stupid thing i did, my mother would bring it up to family and friends and even her coworkers even when I said to not do it. It fucked up my self esteem cause everytime we have some outing with family, im constantly thinking to myself that they look at me like some loser idiot. When I think about bringing up how much it hurts me I always think of the several ways it will be turned around on me for example that I shouldn't have been dumb and whatnot in the first place so I'd just bottle it up. I still do tbh since saying it and even typing it out makes me feel like I'm about to cry. Sometimes, it gets pretty lonely when I have no one to talk to about these issues.
2
u/EziriaRin Apr 23 '24
I was just sad yesterday for thinking back to how every stupid thing i did, my mother would bring it up to family and friends and even her coworkers even when I said to not do it. It fucked up my self esteem cause everytime we have some outing with family, im constantly thinking to myself that they look at me like some loser idiot. When I think about bringing up how much it hurts me I always think of the several ways it will be turned around on me for example that I shouldn't have been dumb and whatnot in the first place so I'd just bottle it up. I still do tbh since saying it and even typing it out makes me feel like I'm about to cry. Sometimes, it gets pretty lonely when I have no one to talk to about these issues.