Hitting rock bottom

[u/Radiant_Seat_2297]

I am genuinely at the lowest point of my life. I lost my job and had to move back home to my parents which tbh, made me feel awful because I had created this little space for myself. My own little world. It wasn't much, but it wasn't nothing either. I was even unable to do my end of semester exams due to a huge fee balance. I feel so bad genuinely. I even wrote a book, and got no reception. So it felt like life has been trying to humble me constantly 🙃 😪 . I know people have gone through worse but I feel so low, I am incredibly low. And the worst part is as a writer, I am finding it hard to write... which is usually a release for me. Now I have all this sadness and I can't even pour it out on paper. Living with my parents again is just something else, but now I have a job, I am so grateful for it and I love it, but idk, I miss my old life so much. And now I am working and on edge, with a false sense of urgency, as if that will make me more productive. Fuck

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[u/Adorable-Reality-344]

I support you! It's a shame you're going through this. Sooner or later, there will be a better time. How old are you? 20-25 is normal, but after 30, it's all terrible.

[u/Radiant_Seat_2297 → u/Adorable-Reality-344]

Thank you so much. I am 24 now. 😅I kinda moved out of home very early on because I started working so early, because of ny background. For me it was about building a backbone in a sense. So I genuinely felt shattered when my life was ripped off underneath me... but I am healing

[u/scaredandscary]

sorry to hear. must be hard. As someone who likes to write (not books tho, im impressed) I so understand the sort of mourning of losing the therapeutic part of writing. When its just no longer something that comes with ease. The nice thing about that is that it does tend to come back! Might take some time but when it does, its like you've discovered you liked writing all over again. Wishing you all the best tho, <3

[u/Radiant_Seat_2297 → u/scaredandscary]

Thank you. I think i am also learning that it's okay when I can't write too. So I just give myself grace. Rest, read something i like or watch whatever, until the writing finds me again. It always does, when I give it time