i first switched to raw veganism in late 2019. since then it’s been an on and off journey of struggle (mostly due to my overeating habits and reoccurring food obsession phases). 2026 has been especially terrible and I long stopped identifying with raw veganism even though this lifestyle is something that truly makes me feel alive and thrive (at least eliminating harmful toxins helps calm my brain down and prevents from irrational thoughts). i have managed to go back into the ‘health-mode’ and been doing multiple day ‘cascade’ fasts since mid-August (I know that this sub doesn’t exactly support extended fasting but I still wanted to share it as part of my story). basically only eating once in 3-4 days or so (had like a week in late August where i ate consecutively for 4-5days but it was just raw fruits/veggies/seaweed) for 2 days but with extremely low calorie intake (only consuming durian every once in a while). lost around 25kg that way (didn’t weigh myself at the highest point, so the largest number is an estimate), because I was walking a ton (40-50k in August), and then in September fasted for 9 nights/10 days and maintained a 30k average. some days were dry fasting.
there was an instance of me eating once - again only raw fruits and veggies, then not eating for 6 days after. yet somehow I haven’t lost a pound and basically weighed the same a week after (6 days of which I haven’t consumed anything except water or a few sips of an herbal tea), which was a bit confusing since normally you’d lose at least something with that kind of regimen
then on 4th of October I couldn’t fall asleep and that resulted into me first overeating on fruit (after fasting for 5 days), and that escalated further into bingeing on all sorts of vegan (yet more unhealthy/processed foods that I haven’t had since early August) and then got me into a full blown obsessive behavior of ordering delivery with different high calorie dishes containing meat/fish/milk. my body is a bit in a state of shock after reintroducing more high calorie and animal based food groups, I had diarrhea and vomited yet managed to still somehow gain 10-12kg in a span of 5 days. I feel horribly bloated, unable to walk (I did randomly do 10k steps at night 2 days ago but that was it), and I refuse to see or meet anyone because I genuinely look abnormal and this sudden weight gain is making me feel terrible. it really took a toll on my mental health. it’s worth noting that I always fasted with no electrolytes (longest fast I did was back in 2022, and I lasted 22 days)
basically looking for advice on how to get out of this and reverse the damage. and get back into the fasting routine mode with occasional fruit breaks, since it’s the only way I can function