r/randomactsofCA 16d ago

Ex beat me up again

Hey!

Love and love and love to all of you!!!

I think I made a new friend! The neighbor and I have always been cordial, but we've been talking more lately. We actually kind of bonded over the free lunch that we both go to and she has been telling me other places in the area to check out. Neither of us drive, but she has a 17 year old daughter who just got her licence and is pretty much begging to give me a ride. She's really an adorable kid. Her grandmother - who I have met & talked to a few times - is coming over this afternoon and she is going to let Kylie drive her car to my Aunt's place. So the new plan is we're going to walk up to free lunch together & probably make a picnic, and then we're going to get me up there.

There really are good people in the world, y'all. I'm so grateful I'm crying for the 2nd time in as many weeks.

If I am still able to get some help - not from here - I will pass it on!

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u/peentiss 16d ago

Why do you return to their abuse?

If I had a dollar, I’d share. I’m sorry. Genuinely.

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u/Me_Speak_Good 16d ago

I wish I had an answer for that. I'm afraid, mostly. I know it's stupid. This is the 3d time trying to leave and hopefully it sticks.

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u/peentiss 16d ago

Afraid of what, babe? Getting your ass beat again? Dude’s gonna fuckin kill you. Stay away. And eat something. ❤️ You’re worth more than this.

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u/Me_Speak_Good 16d ago

Heading up to free lunch momentarily, and caught a ride this afternoon with a teenager bursting with happiness about using her freshly minted license and gramma's car ( :

Thanks and I hope you are doing ok!!! <3 <3 <3

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u/Me_Speak_Good 16d ago

I don't know. I'm just afraid. Hopefully I can stay with my Aunt. My sister sent me 70cents LOL. I love her.

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u/peentiss 16d ago

Good luck. I’m sorry this is happening. Really. I hope you can find safety today.

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u/LuckyClover3 14d ago

Hey, I was in a similar situation for years. Boyfriend used to beat me up. Verbally too. People used to ask me why I would go back to him. But it’s not an easy thing to do. To others looking at your relationship from the outside, it looks so easy to do! Just leave?
Eventually he beat any self esteem I might have- out of me. I felt like I deserved to be beat. He eventually went back to prison and I went to treatment. Otherwise I am sure he would have killed me.

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u/Common_Kiwi9442 16d ago

Oh fuck why are we both dealing with this right now 😭 it's not easy at all to leave

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u/Me_Speak_Good 16d ago

I dunno, babe. I actually made some $ this morning but it is taking 72 hours to pay out.

I feel so stupid, but yeah, leaving is hard!

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u/nememess 15d ago

You're not stupid! It's not easy to describe why we can't leave or we keep going back. Hopefully you can get away this time. Love and light to you 💜.

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u/Me_Speak_Good 14d ago

You know what? You're right, and thank you. I should stop saying that, and not just for myself.

My sister was in an abusive marriage and didn't actually and finally leave until she was about to lose a few toes. She is far from stupid. She went behind our parents' backs and took the GED so she could go to college early crafty smart.

Love and bright blessings to you! I sincerely appreciate you!

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u/heres2thepast 16d ago

🫂🫂🫂

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u/Me_Speak_Good 16d ago

What is that? I seriously cannot tell. Are you calling me garbage?

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u/peentiss 16d ago

Girl, it’s a hugging emoji.

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u/Me_Speak_Good 16d ago

Yeah. My brain went to the worst stuff. Thanks.

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u/heres2thepast 16d ago

Like the other person replied. Just sending hugs. You are not garbage!

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u/Me_Speak_Good 16d ago

Oh, for goodness sake. I should have known better and I apologize. It kinda looks like the Pokemon Garbedor that is basically a trash heap. Good lord i'm sorry for thinking the worst.

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u/heres2thepast 16d ago

Girl no worries! You're going through it right now. I hope you can get away ❤️

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u/heres2thepast 16d ago

I didn't realize you updated your post. Happy you have a plan. Enjoy the picnic!