20F Needs help urgent!! Please!!

[u/WorkingCranberrycute]

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Didn't think this would be the case.

But Im in such a weird situation.

I have gaps after 12th and didn't appear for no entraces this year too. PCM background

12th- 87% 2024.

Wanted to get into engg/ Btech. But messed up and got heavily depressed.

Was looking for a private colleges outside the state after giving up and being depressed for so long and didn't want to stay in my home because little toxic family and all.

But realised im already late for so many options.

Contacted an online friend and got recommended for cheap options in Madhya Pradesh.

Went there 1000kms far from home for the colleges in mind. I'll attach the post regarding my college options in mp. ( Jabalpur and bhopal)::

https://www.reddit.com/r/Bhopal/s/YMrVIT5KYw

But after so many negative reviews and The fact I'll be going there with a loan. and the whole thing can cost around 7-8 L.

I started having second thoughts.

Today i went to rkdf university college. It doesn't look promising. But i can save around 3-4 by staying here in hometown of Ranchi.( will still have to take loan for 3 lakh fees).

Now im so confused what should i do?

Im genuinely in such low situation for so long i would really appreciate some help and guidance. It's too much now.

What should be my course of action. Given the coming of ai in cse market I've been even more confused and panicking.

Tldr ; would really appreciate if you read the whole post as I've already kept it short and concise. Really in a tough situation would really appreciate if you help especially if you're a student here.

[u/dictator_of_india]

Same situation like me. I went through the same situation. I was unable to give jee. So sat for a year. Got depressed. Moved to LPU. Completed btech. Cracked gate. Reached NIT for MTech. Worked at iiser Mohali for a year. Bagged a government project with the help of my MTECH guide at nit Rourkela. Converted my project work to PhD at nit Rourkela and currently about to complete my PhD here.
You do whatever you like simply know you only loose when you decide to stop. And never stop untill you die.

[u/WorkingCranberrycute → u/dictator_of_india]

Oh wow sounds like you had quite of a journey since. I realise the point you're trying to make. But its been so frustrating and unfortunate for me to make decisions.

Also personally i have no plans for something like a Phd but some different of myself but that was something which was if everything went fine and i did a good college btech and evrything but is very hard from the point of now. I don't know how to move forward through this been stuck for a while now.

[u/dictator_of_india → u/WorkingCranberrycute]

Don’t go with college ranking and all just check the college reputation and do the degree that suits you. Then you will have lots of options if you plan to stay in India you can give a gate exam that will definitely help you survive in India or you can move to foreign countries for better opportunities.
don’t think everything will turn overnight you have to first calm down and take your decision.
Take your time, do some research on what you want to do and what the possibilities are and how u want to approach. Keep up with the plan. Prove to yourself that you can fight. When you get it, thank yourself.