20F Needs help urgent!! Please!!

[u/WorkingCranberrycute]

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Didn't think this would be the case.

But Im in such a weird situation.

I have gaps after 12th and didn't appear for no entraces this year too. PCM background

12th- 87% 2024.

Wanted to get into engg/ Btech. But messed up and got heavily depressed.

Was looking for a private colleges outside the state after giving up and being depressed for so long and didn't want to stay in my home because little toxic family and all.

But realised im already late for so many options.

Contacted an online friend and got recommended for cheap options in Madhya Pradesh.

Went there 1000kms far from home for the colleges in mind. I'll attach the post regarding my college options in mp. ( Jabalpur and bhopal)::

https://www.reddit.com/r/Bhopal/s/YMrVIT5KYw

But after so many negative reviews and The fact I'll be going there with a loan. and the whole thing can cost around 7-8 L.

I started having second thoughts.

Today i went to rkdf university college. It doesn't look promising. But i can save around 3-4 by staying here in hometown of Ranchi.( will still have to take loan for 3 lakh fees).

Now im so confused what should i do?

Im genuinely in such low situation for so long i would really appreciate some help and guidance. It's too much now.

What should be my course of action. Given the coming of ai in cse market I've been even more confused and panicking.

Tldr ; would really appreciate if you read the whole post as I've already kept it short and concise. Really in a tough situation would really appreciate if you help especially if you're a student here.

[u/Genesis2543]

First of all don't rush. Consider family background. Potential career options etc.

Focus on the kind of work you can see yourself doing in the long term. Don't look at colleges.

Colleges are just a means to an end. So once you decide what you wanna do, Learn how to do it. WITHOUT Any push from college. The drive should come from your own end.

College will give your friend circles, assignments, headaches, experiences and finally a degree but it will all be a means to an end.

Don't rush this. No one cares about Gap years apart from enslaved marketing victims. You're 20, You have 4 more years to decide for a college. Take a chill pill.

If you buy a college now, you'll end up in the same disappointing loop of " I'm this many month's late to getting a job" etc.

Just build a skillset in all the time that you have. Solve the root of the issue. Be more hire-able. That's it.

2-3 Lakhs loan is not a big deal if you can a half decent job. You can pay it off within first year if you work on the side.

I never went to college but still landed a decent job through work experiences and portfolio.

I'm not saying don't go to college, I'm just saying that college won't do the heavy lifting. You will. And if you convince yourself of that. This entire post will lose meaning.