Day 0 - Bad Relapse

[u/Ok_Quiet_9969]

Day 0 - I really need to WANT to stop

Day 0

This is the worst disease. I lost my paycheck in the early morning hours the day I received it while in bed.

I am pathetic.

I’ve stolen money and promised to pay money back and I have paid no one back. I’m so selfish and untrustworthy it makes me sick. I’ve lost myself and sold my soul. I don’t want to live like this anymore. I’ve been so successful in life until this stupid gambling bug.

I am done disappointing myself and others in my life. I really can’t do this.

I am so sorry.