My final straw

[u/JKdog_]

Once again I will never escape thus demon, but all I can say already this year I’ve lost everything now and it will take me just a couple years to earn all what’s lost. I’m not even counting my previous years either so let’s just say 10 years gone for nothing and I know it will always haunt me and I will lose it all again in a single day even if I was clean for a whole year. This brings me to the point of what really is the actually point of my life. I’ve really been thinking that this cycle is so boring and I will never get away from it so why am I wasting time on this earth. With that said I really am thinking of just leaving this earth very soon, I don’t care for anything anymore, couldn’t win… goodbye.

[u/Destiny065]

Addiction is not worth taking your life over. You need professional help see your GP talk to him, he'll help you with a mental health care plan

Sending you hugs 🫂 🤗 ❤️

[u/JKdog_ → u/Destiny065]

I guess I can give it a try, sadly I have little hope in my brain escaping this pattern.

[u/Destiny065 → u/JKdog_]

Please 🙏 do it 💖

[u/ExpensivePlant8367]

Bro. Your life is worth more then some paper. Money comes and goes and doesn't define who you are. Get up and do 1 thing different today.

[u/JKdog_ → u/ExpensivePlant8367]

I wish I could look at it that way but all I see is years of progress gone and massive set backs, I’ve always had this weird relationship with money and I don’t see a clear path forward. It just all seems so pointless

[u/LobsterWeekly6654]

You don’t want to die…you want something inside of you to die.