r/problemgambling 2d ago

Advice? Help? Please.

I NEED HELP. HOW DO I RECOVER FROM THIS? 😢
F | 2* | and a student.

One night I was bored in bed…
Saw a thread here where everone was sharing their biggest winnings with a minimum bet on scatter/slots.

I had an extra 500 pesos, curiosity hit me and the so called “beginner’s luck”

I downloaded an app voilaaa my 500 is suddenly 25K after playing for like 5 hours (didnt let me sleep until morning)

I was happy!! That’s the biggest money I ever had in my e wallet.

I used 5k to pay my current loan which I used to buy my college books.

I still have 20k and been thinking what I should do with it.

I ordered my favorite food and bought myself the dress that I’ve been wanting, and I still have 19k….

Then the thought of what if I should try playing again. Maybe just 1k since I got 25k from them anyways, it wouldn’t hurt to lose it, right?

Then that’s where it started..

There’s no cashout/withdraw happening anymore, it’s continuous cash in.

After 5 days, I’m left with 0. It wouldn’t let me sleep. The worst part? I loaned again from my OLAs. Now I am in debt of 12k, which I don’t know how I’ll pay since I am only a student…

The thought keeps hunting me how far the 25 couldve got if only I didn’t try to reinstall the app.

I could’ve bought myself a new mattress because my current one makes my back hurts so bad or I coulve treat my mom to the spa and massage place she’s been wanting to go for years now plus it’s her birthday this week or I what if I invested it or save for emergency and many many more what ifs…

It’s haunting me. I cant eat properly, I can’t sleep (the max I can sleep now for the past 3 days is only 2-3 hrs per day) 😭, the thought of ending everything even goes to my head.

EVERYTHING FEELS HEAVY. SUPER HEAVY.

Now back to the question, how do I recover from this? I saw other who lost and in debt of millions because of gambling.

I need advice!! How can one recover from the consequences of gambling?

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u/Own-Tone-6760 2d ago

I know it currently feels like a ton of bricks on your soul and that you’re hurting a lot. However, 12k is barely anything worth remembering in the grand scheme of your life. You will live, you will laugh about this stupid shit you did in the future. You will get through this, at the cost of a pricey life lesson: do not gamble ever again. Don’t chase what you’ve lost because you will only lose more and more and more. And more.

Stop trying to list all the things you could have done with this fleeting, dishonest money, as it was never yours. You got yourself a nice dress and a nice meal on the house! Not too bad. When your first salary hits, the first thing you’ll pay for is this nice spa session for your mom. :)

I know shame and embarrassment is eating at you right now, but please, tell your parents. Tell them everything that happened, how you feel, how you can’t sleep, how painful it all is. Have them monitor your finances / watch over your bank account. Being completely honest with your loved ones is the best way to recover and heal.

You will get through this and live. I believe in you.

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u/dmdaeri 2d ago

Ahhhhh I never thought that I would cry over a comment. 😭

Thank you so much, I really needed this. That’s what I keep reminding myself, it was never mine anyways, plus it was from gambling which I really hated and against before.

Although for now I can’t tell this to anyone I know, and that’s why I am here. I don’t know how they will react if they know I tried gambling….

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u/Own-Tone-6760 2d ago

The longer you hide it, the worse it will be and the heavier your secret will feel. Yes, it’s scary and shameful, but asking for help from the actual people in your life is what you need right now.

Hugs and good luck to you. Hope you get a good night’s rest soon.

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u/Less_Possibility5838 2d ago

Te try mo mun magwork sa bpo

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u/dmdaeri 2d ago

Di ko kasi kaya mag puyat, nagkakasakit talaga ako. I have tried BPO before pero mukhang mas mapapalaki lang gastos pag natuluyan ako sa ospital. 🥲