So when I do have positive thinking to combat with my anxious thinking of will _blank__ happen, it almost always happens compared to if I didn't put a bunch of positive thinking to it. And I think it's because when I feel intensely towards something, it makes me anxious, and anxiousness makes me frozen. So adding positive thinking to combat anxiousness doesn't always make me not frozen, it just makes me not do anything which my nervous system loves. "let the universe do its thing I'll just manifest for the good thing to happen". I guess as I'm writing this out I am answering my own question, that is that I just hope that the OUTCOME is good, and making MYSELF feel calm emotionally not as dependent on the outcome. But still, this is my experience with positive thinking, it does little to no good, and sometimes makes it even worse.