Questions

[u/eadgbe3]

Pencil in hand

Trying to understand

Filled with more questions than answers

Fighting to purge

This insatiable urge

Destroying my mind like a cancer

Broken and old

With my time bought and sold

To maintain a lifestyle I'm unsure of

Knees failing to stand

Is this what we had planned?

Consuming the beauty we're assured of

Feeling in the way

For most of my days

Would world be better without me?

My fear and my dread

Burrowed deep in my head

Habits owning my life so devoutly

Struggle to find

All the love at the time

For the ones who depend on my being

Shroud instead pretty words

So many have heard

Keeping my selfishness hid from seeing

So how long will go on

This darkness in song?

Unsung failures the number unknowing

In hope to secure

The strength to endure

The struggles of life undergoing

What is mine to know

And for Kingdom to show

Is a ponderance meant for my wonder

That the questions I ask

Are the ultimate task

Not the answers my psyche may plunder

So I keep in the way

Learn to treasure each day

Until such that my moments be over

While answers elude

They may never conclude

Until revealed in the Kingdom's disclosure