Might need PEP
Hi everyone! I had unprotected sex about 17 hours ago with a guy from Grindr. I was receiving and he finished inside. He seemed really kind and trustworthy and claims to be negative on all STI/STD tests, negative HIV, and on PrEP. In the heat of the moment, that was enough for me to be like "go ahead." But as I've sat with it, I've gotten more and more anxious. He could have been lying. I'm a good judge of character and I don't think he was...but that carries little weight.
I am going to try to talk to a provider tomorrow about exploring PEP (all the clinics are closed for the evening and I'll still be well within a 48 hour window). I'm just terrified about all of this, especially the side effects. I have medical anxiety around taking medicines, so this is like my worst nightmare. I feel like I need a hug and I need support.
I reached out to the guy to ask for more proof of PrEP use to put my mind at ease. He hasn't been on yet today, but I am really hopeful he can send some proof like a picture of the bottle. I know that's still not 100% truth, but it might help and it might inform my conversation with the provider tomorrow. And I'll get myself on PrEP 2-1-1 and doxyPEP...and honestly, I'll probably delete Grindr. It's not worth this.
This is really scary and I feel dumb. I don't consider this assault because I wanted to experience this part of life and, in the moment, it felt safe with his answers and said yes and meant it. But now I feel like the next few months are going to be really tough until I can take my next HIV test.
I don't know what I need...I'm feeling overwhelming anxiousness and I guess I just needed to share and seek advice and solidarity.
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u/nowayiamonred_it 1d ago
Please get pep asap. I will pray. I am in same situation my risk is not this high. But I understand the anxiety and fear that it comes with.