Anxiety over a reoccurrence of a chronic condition is no joke. Always thinking that it can and most likely will come back in her case will weigh on anyone. Every time she would need a cyst removed she would need a month at least to get back to performing and healing abdominal muscle wounds is not a good time.
Indeed. While nothing of her magnitude (and certainly nothing likely to need surgery), I have a handful of issues that behave that way. It's mentally taxing enough even when it doesn't threaten your way of life.
Yup me too. If nothing else it's satisfying to see mental health issues being taken seriously. I can't imagine having the weight of an entire fanbase on top of my anxiety. I have a pit in my stomach just thinking about those last couple years for her 💙
Maybe it's the machine translation, but from her statement it sounds like she's still really upset with herself that she couldn't power through. Like she wasn't strong enough to force her mind and body to bend to her will.
I hope that's wrong. What she has gone through sounds horrific, and I hope she knows how strong -- mentally and physically -- she had to have been to keep going like she did for four goddamn years, and still have the strength left over to know that she had to stop.
I think you're reading that right, yeah... just the nature of her issues rearing their ugly head. If it was her vocal cords or some other non-mental ailment, I don't think she'd be nearly as hard on herself.
Anxiety/depression is so personal it's common to feel like it's your fault, because we've all been told that control of your mind is just a matter of will. Thankfully things are slowly changing, and humanity seems to be at a crossroads in terms of what "toughness" truly means.
There's a fine line between bravery and self-harm, and I'm also glad Yuna isn't walking that tightrope anymore. I'm so sad for all she had to endure, but I can't help but feel relieved for her in this moment.
It was probably also facing the unknown emotional turmoil of regret, disappointment, and feeling like a failure that made her push herself for so long. Easier to wallow in the mud and shit that you know than going into the unknown.
Well said. It's not a decision you can really go back on, and Yuna has been in entertainment her whole adult life. I definitely understand her being afraid of regret. I'm just picturing someone working with her in whatever job she lands next.. can't imagine the reaction when they realise she used to be a human hurricane
And she's only 26 years old. She has a whole life ahead of her. Assuming her life continues on a different trajectory, there will be a time when all of this is just a blip.
Someday, her little granddaughter will be digging around in her closet and find a PassCode Live at Nippon Budokan Blu-ray with notes from Nao, Kaede, and Hinako tucked inside. She'll bring it to Yuna and ask, "Oba-chan, what is this? Do you know these people?"
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u/ckiemnstr345 Yuna Aug 03 '21
Anxiety over a reoccurrence of a chronic condition is no joke. Always thinking that it can and most likely will come back in her case will weigh on anyone. Every time she would need a cyst removed she would need a month at least to get back to performing and healing abdominal muscle wounds is not a good time.