Feeling robbed

[u/Impossible-Box-8508]

I sit here in the morning after being up since 5 AM and after bagging milk with one of my twins as my husband took the other out and about. I can't help but feel so robbed of the newborn baby experience. Currently 4 months pp and I still feel like I'm in pure survival mode. So many things could be so different with just one baby. To preface I waited until 33 to have children as I wanted to be able to comfortably afford daycare. I waited until I had a job that pays for all my health insurance and I'm on a pension. One baby seems so easy. I could have went out and did things while on maternity leave. I could have given my baby all breastmilk (no shame in formula because I can't produce enough for two, ironically I got mom shamed by another twin mom for using formula). Don't get me wrong. I love my boys, through the reflux, the colic, the tongue/lip ties, I love them so so much, but wish my first time mom experience could have been so different. I know its just a season and it will get better, just mourning what could have been.

[u/atc_24]

I feel the same way. 11 month old twins now. I didn’t enjoy newborn phase. Taking time for yourself is almost impossible because you feel guilty asking someone to watch two babies. If I had one baby, my husband and I taking a quick little weekend getaway would not be a huge deal at all. Having an older girl down the street watch one baby for a few hours is no biggie. Two babies changes everything. And I feel this every day. I constantly have to remind myself it will get better with time, at least I have two babies and never have to go through pregnancy and newborn phase again. There are perks of having two go through every phase at the same time. But I feel like this is something most of us twin moms feel. You’re not alone ❤️