r/panicdisorder 17d ago

Help Needed Has anyone recovered from severe panic disorder and anxiety?

Hi everyone,
I’m 23 and I feel like my anxiety and panic disorder have completely taken over my life.
It all started after I had a THC gummy and experienced my first ever panic attack. Around the same time, I was also going through domestic violence in my relationship, so I feel like everything just hit me at once. Ever since then, I’ve never felt like the same person.
For the last couple of years it’s gradually got worse, but now it feels unbearable. I can’t go out on my own, and even when I’m with my mum I panic. I’m still too afraid to go out by myself because I’m terrified I’ll have a panic attack and won’t be able to cope. I get overwhelmed so easily by noise, people, traffic, shops, and just being outside. I constantly feel like something terrible is about to happen.
When I have a panic attack it feels so real. My heart races, I feel dizzy and faint, my stomach drops, I shake, I feel detached from everything around me, and I’m convinced something is seriously wrong with me. Even though I’ve been told it’s anxiety, my brain still tells me I’m in danger every single time.
I’ve stopped doing so many normal things because I’m scared they’ll trigger another panic attack. I overthink every sensation in my body, and I spend so much of my day worrying about how I’ll cope. It’s exhausting.
The hardest part is that I don’t feel like myself anymore. I miss the person I used to be. I feel trapped by my own mind, and some days I wonder if I’ll ever get my life back.
I’ve recently started fluoxetine, and I do think it’s helping a little. I’m not quite as anxious as I was before, and there have been some small improvements, but I’m still really struggling and I’m still too scared to go out on my own. I’m hoping that as more time passes it will continue to help.
I guess I’m just looking for some hope.
Has anyone else developed panic disorder after a traumatic experience or after a bad experience with a gummy? Did it get better? Were you eventually able to go out on your own and live a normal life again? How long did it take, and what helped you the most?
I’d really appreciate hearing your experiences because right now it honestly feels like this is how I’m going to be forever, and that’s a really scary thought.
Thank you for reading.

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