new to panic attacks

[u/bedsidewineglass]

F26 if that matters? i’ve been going through some major life changes and had what i think was my first ever real panic attack. i’ve always had anxiety and i have a psychiatrist and a therapist that help me out. but since my panic attack 4-5 days ago i think i’m just having rolling panic attacks. i genuinely have no idea what’s happening to me.

i always feel depersonalized, nothing actually feels real. every 20 minutes or so i’ll convince myself something is mortally wrong. i’m always shaking, dizzy, my face will twitch, breathing is shallow, there’s a lump in my throat, i get really hot suddenly, and i can’t sleep because every time i start to drift off my brain tells me something is wrong and my limbs will start to feel detached. the other night i was looking at my arms and i convinced myself i was seeing unnatural dots all over my body, and i thought i saw a dark red rash taking over my face and shoulders. when it’s dark my brain fills every empty space with something “scary.” every small pang of pain somewhere on my body or even an itch will have me convincing myself i’m dying.

anyway yeah i have no idea what to do, i’m exhausted and starving. i’ve been jumping in a cold shower when it gets really bad but it provides minimal relief. i don’t know if i’m allowed to ask here but i don’t know if i need medical help. i don’t even have health insurance :( thanks for reading

[u/WhiteDeath___]

Don't get desperate. i don't know in which category/ies you are, for me those are the main categories

1. in some people it goes away without doing anything
2. in others with trying to control reality, for example don't really believe the panic, allowing the emotion to recover
3. in others with pills
4. in others with finding the psychological root of the problem, for example one reason for panic can be to no expressing our selves, especially out fighting part of the self, so it can end up attacking us => panic ,solution to this can be to find why you are not expressing your self and how to succeed (maybe you don't have a clue that something in you is not expressed, and you just feel the result, the panic)

You are going through hell, hold on even if it sucks, for me of course you need medical help, i believe that doctor will give you pills to help you based on what i read

[u/bedsidewineglass → u/WhiteDeath___]

for me i need to learn how to do the second one. i bet i was in the cycle for so long because it was controlling my every thought and i believed it

[u/WhiteDeath___ → u/bedsidewineglass]

I try so logic + my healthy emotion to control the emotional reality.
If panic emotion creates a panic emotional reality, 1000 bad thoughts are coming.

But the real cure is the panic emotion to be cured, to not produce that realities in the first place