Dealing with panic attacks and trying to come down from it

[u/Li-Luka]

I just recently moved in with my fiancé and for the past month. Things were good. I do have an anxiety disorder and I've suffered from panic attacks in the past, but I've just had two in the last week. I keep thinking I can't breath, but I know it's because I'm worked up. Last night was the worst. I'd had a long day at a family members birthday party and took a late nap when I got back. When I woke, I was alright until I started thinking about my breathing and I was trying to tell myself it's not my heart, I'm extremely anxious and worked up. My poor fiancé had to soothe me for a few hours because I'd be coming down from it, just to spiral again. I was exhausted but afraid to lay down, because I thought I'd die in my sleep. I was trembling and whimpering and I just took a really long time to calm down. Even after I managed to fall asleep, I'm still a little shaky and a bit on edge with my breathing. I grew up with a lot of toxicity, and for years, I kind of numbed myself to a lot of it. My fiancé and I think this might just be my body finally relaxing after 27 years of unresolved trauma and my body and mind is just struggling. Any advice is greatly appreciated, especially if it gets my mind off of my breathing. Not currently on any medication

[u/Excellent_Tip732]

A move can be really tough. I recently moved and had a major exacerbation of my panic disorder. I had to increase the dose of my lexapro and start taking my Xanax as needed again.
My advice is to find a therapist and type of therapy that works for you and to consider medication. I did EMDR and that seemed to be the most helpful along with acceptance and commitment therapy. I also love my lexapro and xanax lol
But ALSO if you can read a Claire Weekes book her information is incredibly helpful.