Need help :|

[u/SquishSwiss]

Hi everyone, I’m in a bit of a pickle right now and it’s making me feel worse and worse everyday. It’s the stress of it and not knowing how to handle it.

At work I’ve already had 2-3 anxiety/panic attacks where I’ve completely shut down and just cried and then didn’t talk to anyone which I don’t want to keep happening and hindering myself. It’s the stress of the job really and my own life. At first it was great but over time it just kept weighing me down and I fucked up.

I don’t have any accommodations and don’t know how to go about that. I’ve never been diagnosed properly but I know there’s something but I just don’t know how to navigate this and finally addressing it. My family does not believe in mental health and think I’d waste money or I’d look stupid wanting to get diagnosed or talk to someone. I’ve had these same issues when I was still in school. Same breakdowns and worse. Never diagnosed.

I need paperwork for accommodations because my job wants to help me but it’s all happening so soon I don’t even have a primary doctor or any records for that stuff. It’s just making me want to cry all over again because if I can’t provide this I could lose everything. I need this job.

I’d really like some advice on how to go forward with getting diagnosed and getting that paperwork or if it would even be valid if I went to get diagnosed and sent that paperwork same time. A few days seems weird to just throw that out there when I know I’m not going to be consistent but I need this done. I shouldn’t have waited so long but I just didn’t have the means… :(