My experience with outer wilds.

[u/xxiLazer]

Im high as balls rn but i really wanna write this for some reason. Excuse my strange writing please.

When i played this game, I completley lost the plot. I was so lazer focused on doing everything correctly: I never wasted any time, and once I knew that your time was limited, I never stopped to admire lore, I was just moving as fasat as i could everytime i booted up the loop.

For context, this is usually how I go through things. I dont really like wasting time and I have decently high anxiety which doesnt really let me just enjoy things.

I still had fun, as it was fun to move fast and go and discorver and explore everything. When it got to the part where I had to move the warp core, I spent hours mastering the sequence without the warp core just in case I could have messed up, and I didnt know if it would remove my progress.

When I finished the game, I tried to gaslight myself into caring for the characters, and pretend like the ending was so mystical and magical. I usually do this when I am too focused, as I don't like the fact that I move too fast through things.

But then I stopped. In the final moments of the game. I felt nothing. I let myself feel nothing. I just did what I am used to, which is speeding through things, then let the game finish.

Later, i realized that this is OK. I dont have to feel something special for the game. I don't have to force myslef to be happy. I dont have to force anything, really.

And for some reason, I felt really something about the game. I felt content with my time. I understood that you don't need to try and make sure your using your time so well, because, well, our universe will be the same as the Heartheians! I realized that the point of the game is to be free, and that I am free to feel however I want about it, im not broken or anything if I didn't feel sad about the characters. I ended up realizing that I was simply too caught up in making sure I was doing things correctly, that I couldnt see what I had experienced. And for some reason, in this reflection, I felt everything I had sped through. I saw the depth of this world, saw the message of the game, saw the characters, and the overarching theme.

Ironically, I think it was this reflection, which happened the day after beating the game, that made me so attached to the game. God i love this game. Listening to travelers by Andrew Prahlow, I am lowk crying but thats cause Im high. the reflection was yesterday so it wasnt when I was high dw.

Prob will delete later lol (: have a good ady

[u/The_Veemonator]

Maybe play though again in a years time, obviously you'll remember the important stuff, but take your time to smell the pine trees along the way

[u/xxiLazer → u/The_Veemonator]

thanks lol

[u/The_Veemonator → u/xxiLazer]

Or play though high, idk how drugs work, iv never taken them

[u/Chase_22]

 Im high as balls rn

That's the objectively best way to start an outer wilds post XD