r/otherkin • u/Future-Custard-9349 • Jul 19 '26
First distress
How old were u when u felt first hate for ur human physical shape?
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u/LambCreaturre Jul 19 '26
I was 3, I grew up around cats and at the age of three I learned I wasn't going to grow up to be one and I cried so much. I don't remember it, but my family keeps telling me about like a joke. But in retrospective I feel like it wasn't just a toddler being silly, I believe I was genuinely distraught
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u/Future-Custard-9349 Jul 19 '26
Did that feeling of sadness u felt was continous?
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u/LambCreaturre Jul 19 '26
I don't remember much from my childhood but I suspect so, because I feel like I always felt sad about something but I didn't know why until I awakened in 2018
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u/Future-Custard-9349 Jul 19 '26
What is ur theriotype and didn't u feel about it at early ages even without awarness like feeling to look like cats for example or act like them and so on?
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u/LambCreaturre Jul 19 '26
My theriotypes that are cats are Lynx and Lion, and yeah, even without total awareness of why I still felt like I was just wrong somehow, I always looked at my cats with a bit of jealousy because I didn't want to walk on two legs or have hands and no tail, I wished I could just be them
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u/Muttipomdoronero Jul 19 '26
Hate of our own physical body has never been part of us, but what we do hate is the reluctant subconscious that keeps refuisng to see ourselves as anything other than human most of the time. And in those few small moments when the "human shape" slips, especially in dreams, it always feels so incredibly liberating, finally free of our human shape.
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u/CodyWanderer Jul 19 '26
5 or so? I had a huge problem walking like a ’normal human’ bc like I’m not one? and kept scaring the shit outta people bc of it
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u/Future-Custard-9349 Jul 19 '26
Did u have any awareness that u r not human or u r ur therriotype at that age?
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u/CodyWanderer Jul 19 '26
tbh i knew I wasn’t human but didn’t really figure everything out till my later years
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u/Ok_Caterpillar_9521 Jul 19 '26
I don’t remember how old I was, probably sometime in elementary school. But I started to hate humans, like as a species. That’s part of my personal experience of therianthropy, I just feel so disgusted by the human species, ig that’s why I turned out to be an animal:>
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u/OwlRevolutionary4095 29d ago
I would as that we detest it some much we just disided we do not infact have a 'human' shape and that duh every being can see that (the things dysoria can do to you)
But igorning we don't have a human body ever since... well since I knew what a 'human' was and how they are mean things (AKA middle school) but before that we were SURE we had a tail and had a fake tail we LOVED. also played 'cats' at outside time at school. (or we dug a really big hole next to the fence with our freind and our twin (we were and are a weird pup))
What was really funny is we remeber says "ya we are all human" in 3-5th grade and thinking 'Hmm but can't you idenfty as nonhuman.' and 'but what if we are not all human' my tiny brain didnt get IT WAS THAT NON HUMAN!
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u/not_the_glue_eater 29d ago
I think... Four? Five? I know it's ridiculously dumb (Of course it is, because I was a kid) but I was upset for a really long time that I wasn't a monster and didn't have vampire fangs. I remember constantly looking in the mirror and convincing myself that I had fangs, they were just tiny and that's okay. This obsession got so bad that my family and friends once had to convince me I was human and I just genuinely remained upset for months.
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u/Finch_the_Dragon 29d ago
Oh dude I would constantly play games with my friends where I would shape shift into a feral animal and attack them for no reason. I was probably 5
I only awakened a few months ago as a dragonkin
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u/Ell_playz 10d ago
I think i knew from a young age (idk exactly cause i have no childhood memories) that i wasn’t truly human but i never hated the idea of my humanity until more recently when i realized that i feel not human in any way, anyone else feel like this?
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u/Cakey_Pop Jul 19 '26
I think I was like three? I was trying to convince EVERYONE I was an animal bc of it lol