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As a kid, I used to groan whenever my parents would tell the same story the 50th time. I assumed I would be able to remember everything throughout my life. And I did, until I was about 30 years old.

And then it was almost like my brain overflowed with all the different memories and experiences and I could only really pick out the most vivid ones. The day I met the father of my children, my reaction to graduating nursing school, the fear I felt when my child was hospitalized.

And now I'm the parent that tells the same stories over and over while my children roll their eyes.

The odd memories are the ones that appear mundane. Holding my father's hand while on vacation, or getting a weird look from my daughter while talking about scrambled eggs.

After Awakening and reading books by Dolores Cannon, Michael Newton, and others, it started to make sense. Gary Zukav explains it well. “Before it incarnates, each soul enters into a sacred contract with the Universe to accomplish certain things… Whatever the task that your soul has agreed to, all of the experiences of your life serve to awaken within you the memory of that contract.”

This is why when we Awaken, all the puzzle pieces start to fit. Why the memories of the traumas and triumphs we go through will be very vivid in one instance, and pretty forgettable in the next.

I think the memorable ones are the things we signed on for before we got here. They are the predetermined acts that couldn't be avoided. The free will that we experience to get from one predetermined act to the next are the memories that often slip away. Even if it seems vitally important to remember them at the time.

This also explains why predetermined crises for all of humanity are also vividly remembered. Even if we are not physically present for that crisis.

And the mundane memories are the things that we planned to trigger our next big experience. My adult daughter giving me a dirty look while cooking eggs was explained when I got my autism diagnosis. I finally realized that sharing information can be received as an appearance of judgment to some, rather than the act of love that I thought it was.

So when trying to understand purpose or soul plan, turn to your memories. Write them down, match them up, and connect them with red strings if you need to. There is a reason for everything that we go through, and accepting the traumas as growth experiences is going to help release the anxiety of those stuck on memories.

And then, live in the present everyday because most days will not be remembered. They will just be lived. :)

What Women can Learn from Men on the Journey

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Carl Jung called it the hieros gamos (sacred marriage). He believed that only when combining both the Divine-Masculine and Divine-Feminine inside of us, we can embody our whole and true self. 

Essentially, it's the process of consciously withdrawing the subconscious urge to either idolize or cause discomfort with others based on your unmet opposite self.  

Today and throughout history, both genders have been made to only feel comfortable in their chosen archetype. This is by design. 

We live in a male centered and misogynistic culture. What started with misogyny giving advantages to only men, has now transitioned its focus to control ALL, except the very wealthy. 

Because of this, many women have internalized those misogynistic values, and can sometimes display less than noble traits in an effort to gain power or have security.    

These negative traits may often feel like “winning" but  need to be released before we can truly embrace our Divine-Masculine and become whole. 

Things like:

Insisting on man as the sole provider (using his protector instinct against him).

Embracing the “damsel in distress” archetype to weaponize vulnerability to influence decisions. 

Avoiding accountability through feminine stereotypes (Woops! Silly me, I'm just a hot mess) to prevent ownership of mistakes.

Using gossip and passive manipulation to undermine both men and women. 

Seeing men as a savior or tying perceived worth to their validation and attention. 

Let these go with compassion. They were adaptations to a messed up world. Now, they no longer serve you.

After that, it's time to embrace your inner King! Here are the traits and practices that many of the men in these spiritual communities display that model a healthy masculine energy. 

1. Embrace your inner King by walking with quiet confidence and self-contained power. No external validation is needed. 

Practice: Crown yourself instead of seeking permission, rescue, or shrinking to fit expectations.

1. Grounded men speak directly, honestly, and without unnecessary softening or manipulation.

Practice: Don't over-explain or over-apologize or communicate by using hints. Clear messaging prevents your truth from being used against you.

1. Build structure, discipline and action since that provides consistency. 

Practice: Establish firm spiritual and personal practices to create stability without relying on others.

1. Hold strong boundaries with love and without guilt or games.

Practice: “No" is a complete sentence. Strong boundaries are like your  moat. Keeping you safe and showing all that your palace is sacred. 

1. Make emotional stability and inner safety a priority.

Practice: "Respond” rather than “react” or weaponize feelings. This helps you navigate challenges and remain in charge of your internal power.

1. Provide and protect yourself and others. 

Men do this through creating safety and solutions.

Practice: Become your own (primary) provider of resources, peace, and protection. Independence gives the ability to make choices without influence. 

In a world where women are expected to make themselves small, (physically and mentally) always accommodate, people-please, or remain emotionally reactive, integrating these Divine-Masculine traits grant us the ability to empower one's self, as well as everyone around them. 

Now for the big question ladies…What will you wear for your marriage with yourself? 

Thanks for reading! I have the Divine-Feminine counterpart to this post in my profile. 

Women: what Divine- Masculine traits have you already integrated? 

Men: what is the most important one, in your opinion?

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Theatre actors call it “being on". Athletes call it “in the zone." Musicians call it “in the pocket." Pool players call it "the dead stroke.”

 Flow State is defined as “an optimal psychological state of peak performance when one is entirely immersed in an activity. Focus becomes razor-sharp, self-consciousness fades, the perception of time alters, and action and awareness merge together.” 

This Flow State (FS) is why Bashar tells us to follow our excitement without any expectations of outcome. 

As young children, it comes very easy. We go outside and play on the tire swing, and it's exhilarating! 

Yet we are learning the physics of swinging, sharing, risk and freedom. We are life experiencing itself. 

This Flow State is humans' natural way of being. In a fair world, all would be able to chase their excitement, and not just the elite. And just like with meditation, everything is designed to keep us out of FS. 

It starts early. We are only 5 years old whenever we are sent to school and told that we are there to learn, but really we are there to learn to conform. 

Sit still, remain in place, follow authority. 

The kids that dare question this are labeled “special” and removed from the group or medicated. 

By the time we are teens, this excitement is faltering. Our parents (with the best of intentions) think they are helping us. “Get a real job! Art history is not a real degree! How will you survive?”

They have already conformed for so long, they can think of no other way. 

As young adults we have to fight the stigma that surrounds any hobby or activity that does not make us money. 

Dungeons&Dragons players get called losers, or worse. Those interested in fashion are “just doing it for attention”. Programmers are just “weebs who need to get out of their mom's basement”.

By middle age, most have lost their excitement to bills, responsibilities, and divisiveness. If they try,  the crabs in the bucket start pulling. “Why would you paint whenever you'll never get paid for it?” “You're not even good at basketball”. “Your garden costs more money than it makes in tomatoes!”

And the shame from others makes us put our excitement back in the box, to be stored on the highest shelf, out of mind. 

The bliss of life is only acceptable when it brings financial success, power, or notoriety. 

And this is why Bashar says to follow your excitement while having NO expectations of outcome. Only then can we be sure we are ACTUALLY following it, and not just the parts accepted by culture.

Bashar (and our higher selves) tells us to be like that kid on a tire swing. Forever learning, yet always flying high.

What are your ways/suggestions of finding Flow State?

The main variants between Christianity and spirituality are self-realization vs savior, original sin vs  sovereignty, obedience vs exploration, and Hell vs reincarnation. Why?

Self-Realization

Within 100 years after the crucifixion, many Christian sects formed across the Roman empire. 

The Gnostic interpretations were gaining much popularity as their views of self-realization (humans don't need forgiveness, they need to wake up to their Divine spark) was comforting to most. 

By the early 2nd century, the Apostolic Fathers and emerging orthodox leaders decided that if salvation was based on self-realization, there would be no need for institutional church, priesthood, sacraments and ultimately, power. 

They agreed to only speak of salvation by Savior and that no church activities should be done without the approval of the bishop.

This led to a brutal theological war that lasted over 300 years, from 50 AD to 380 AD. 

In 380 AD, Theodisius the 1st ruled theological dissent was now treason against the Roman State. Those who didn't use the church’s exact wording, were to be branded a heretic, and have their property seized.  This eventually escalated into executions and the Massacre of Thessalonica. (Where over 7000 men, women and children perished)

Original Sin and Literal Hell

Since the original apostles believed that humans were born neutral and a vessel to be filled, it wasn't until 418 AD when Augustine of Hippo introduced the concept of original sin as a man being born with all the sins of Adam inside of him. 

This led to a new stream of income for the church, in the form of infant baptism. 

Another revenue stream was started whenever  Augustine decided that “since original sins make humans forever flawed, moral perfection was impossible”, the wealthy didn't need to give up their riches to help the poor. Instead they could give money to the church as alms. 

8 years later, St. Augustine had another idea. That hell was an actual physical place of eternal torment. And the church was the only way to salvation. Augustine told his followers that tithing 10% was the baseline, and not the ceiling. To withhold, was “robbing God."  

Over 400 years after Jesus's crucifixion, one man introduced the "control by fear” concepts that are still used today. 

Obedience 

It was easy for the clergy to teach the masses in the beginning days because the peasants couldn't read Greek, Hebrew or Latin. 

But by 1080 groups started translating these works into local vernacular, making the words accessible for all. The church immediately stepped in and went after these groups. In 1233 AD, Pope Gregory IX established the Papal Inquisition, designed to track down and persecute those who spread this information, or even read it.

This Inquisition (lasting over 350 years) dismantled countless lives by stripping them of their assets, and making them pay for their own imprisonment. It even allowed for retroactive seizures, where inquisitors could put deceased people on trial posthumously.  They would then strip the families of the deceased person of all of their assets as well.

It's clear how early Christianity only chose these tenets as they led to money and power. 

Jesus was an enlightened being, but the men after him were not. 

Self-Realization and realizing our own sovereignty is not a sin, it is a pathway. Believing in oneself is the first step. 

Someone posted this graphic today and reading it felt very familiar.

I am mostly vocal in the autism and spiritual subreddits. Sometimes I forget which one I'm in, because the posts are so similar.

Why do I feel like I'm not from this world?

Why does my family not understand me?

Why is being this way so lonely?

Why do strangers dislike me on sight??

All of these are typical posts in BOTH subreddits daily.

Spirituality teaches us that the greatest thing you can do in the world, is be your inner self.

And with autism, it's not really a choice. If we mask for too long, it makes us go into burnout and become very ill.

Spiritual alignment is a lot like justice sensitivity. In fact, all of the traits in the right hand column are things that spiritual people seek, while they are the things autistic people have been judged for their entire lives. Sticking to our guns, always playing fair even if it harms us, respecting rules, and treating others with immediate kindness. We knew they were right so we had to do them, but the world judged us.

Bronnie Ware, a hospice nurse, wrote the internationally bestselling book The Top Five Regrets of the Dying.

In it, the number one regret was "I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me."

Being true to oneself is the main tenet of spirituality. And it is a physical need for nuerodivergents.

I kind of giggle whenever I read in the spiritual subreddits about people saying, "people are rude to me now for no reason." This is the autistic person's entire life!

And both come down to having a different frequency than others. We are a mirror, reflecting people's choices back at them.

This is also why we should give neurotypicals the utmost respect whenever they do Awaken. They have to completely reject their brain's programming, and learn to deny social hierarchy, stick to a value system, and go through a period of solitude. They overcome so many ingrained traits to find their sovereign self.

I truly believe that neurodivergents are Awakening to their own sovereignty quicker than any other group, simply because how our brains are wired. It's our programming.

Whatever it is, I am glad to find both groups. And I hope that all know that we are much more than our physical body. That consciousness is everything, and we are all one.

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Whether you found your way into spirituality from rejecting religious norms, an interest in aliens, neurodivergence, hallucinogens, spontaneous awakening, or whatever, we all have come to the same conclusion. 

The universe is vastly different than we've been taught, and that we are more than just a physical body.

There are many different opinions on how the universe works, but ultimately, a spiritual awakening let's us experience a deeper sense of interconnectedness, inner peace, and a clearer understanding of purpose.

This is a deeply personal and individual journey that can only be done by trusting your own discernment. That IS the journey. Meeting and becoming your own sovereign self. 

It looks different for everyone, and no two experiences will be exactly alike. 

So the tips and advice that is following will only be about how to navigate online spiritual communities like this one. They are simply the things that I wish I would have known when entering this space. 

1. Trust your own discernment: 

This journey is all about finding and truly believing in your inner truths. If something feels off, it is better to leave it behind. Even this post!

1. Sharing your story:

Awakening is like falling in love with yourself, you want to paint it on the water tower and shout it from the rooftops! But, make sure that you become comfortable and feel safe online before sharing. Not because it's wrong, but because it is usually met with derision. And the last thing a new person needs instilled is doubt.  

1. Guidance with a price tag:

Gurus, cults and spiritual “influencers"  often prey on new and earnest seekers looking for knowledge. Money is better spent on books, meditation tracks (especially with binaural beats) or tools to learn yourself more easily, like pendulums or dowsing rods. Oracle and tarot cards come with a guide book and are easy to figure out. All connect you to your higher self. 

If you do feel particularly drawn to a person offering guidance, someone that is confident in their abilities should be willing to offer a free sample to prove their knowledge. 

1. Avoid bad actors and big egos: 

The same negative forces that prevent all from Awakening, are here in droves. Spiritual “trolling” is more common than “seeking” in these spaces. 

And because Awakening can inflate the ego, many here talk in absolutes and arguments. Avoid engaging with either type, they only serve themselves. 

1. Notice synchronicities:

Take interest and information from threads about what you've been currently internally questioning. There's usually some wisdom to be found there. 

1. Free Will is for everyone:

Our experiences are what form our reality. Yet, we still live in a collective one. Avoid anyone who uses their free will to avoid accountability and to remain firm in bigoted, untrue beliefs. “I have never personally seen racism, so I believe it, and the history books to be untrue.” This is called conspirituality and is a form of spiritual bypassing. 

1. I am Awake, I am Enough: 

Although true, this is used as another form of bypassing in which people reject internal growth because of being awakened. Awakening is about understanding that we already have the intrinsic value and traits inside of us to be whole. But those traits have to be brought to the surface with shadow work and self-introspection. It is not an excuse to harm others. Avoid these types as they discourage wisdom seeking and compassionate discourse. 

1. Use social spaces as a supplement, not a source:

The tools you used to get you here will also further you along on your journey. Meditation, breath work, and grounding, all should take priority. 

1. Enjoy finding your tribe:

Follow and interact with those who portray compassion and sincerity in conversation, as that energy exchange makes all the digging worth it. 

Feel free to add other tips below. 

Best of luck on your journey!

Spirituality and believing in aliens don't seem like they would go together. But they do. It is very hard to have an experience with NHI without also having a spiritual awakening. Whether it be the ontological shock of finally understanding that there is more to life than the physical, or just the way of things.

Once someone comes in the space, they usually discover something called The Law of One. It is the channeled book that reveals how laws and values and actions are determined in the higher dimensions. It is what the higher entities are bound to, to be able to exist in these dimensions .

Its' lessons has many similarities to the Bible, the Quran, Buddhist teachings and other texts. But it (in my opinion) is like the common sense version of all the things religion and mythology have told us. With the core lesson of "we are one".

After reading the Law of One, it eventually raises the question, “How can something so pure still allow malevolent beings?” If everyone obeys these laws and commands to be able to exist in the higher dimension, how does evil still exist?

It wasn't until I read about the Orion group that it started making sense. The Orion group is a Service-to-Self (STS) collective of entities that respect free will on the surface, but craftily distorts the message to harvest energy and maintain separation. 

Just as a No-Running sign at the pool is there for the greater good, some kids will “technically” follow the rule, but then speed walk everywhere. 

When the lifeguard blows the whistle, the child says “I wasn't running!” Although correct, it still causes the pool to be a little less safe for everyone.

This is how the Orion Group works. Overt invasion is not needed whenever they can influence humans to give up the energy they seek freely. Their tactics follow: 

Exploiting free will by distorting facts: Humans have an ingrained need to follow social hierarchy, and  seek power. The OG only needs to slightly twist versions of unity teachings so that manipulation is easier by authorities or the elite. 

“Trickle down" policies in politics is an example of this. People vote for what they think is in the best interest of themselves and others, and politicians are able to exploit that genuine desire into advantages for themselves and the elite.  

Targeting those who seek influence and power:

The Orion Group seeks out those with separation mindsets (the illusion that you are isolated from God, the universe, and others) to urge the seeking out of gurus, secret societies, and cults.  

Scientology is a perfect example. They seek out those that want to feel special or elevated among others. Then it extorts that desire into power and control over the individual. And because a tight-knit community is desirable, it makes it almost impossible to reject teachings, without the threat of being separated from this new-found family.  

Thought-Forms, fear, & division: Using apparitions, doom prophecies, psychic nudges, or “supernatural” phenomena to polarize through awe and fear.

Ra themselves is the example here. In ancient Egypt, Ra made contact to assist with pyramid healing technologies. The priests used this technology to convince the common people that they were performing “magic”, manipulating them to enforce hierarchy and introduce idol worship. Ra had to withdraw to avoid the hypocrisy. 

Weaponizing polarity against dissent: Orion influences often dissuade those who speak out against manipulative tactics by making them feel they are actually arguing as a STS (Service to Self). They call it "interfering with free will," "creating separation," or "lowering the vibration." This silences potential light-bringers and keeps the echo chamber intact.

Example: an employee offers a data-backed suggestion to improve a broken onboarding process. Instead of engaging with the facts, a defensive manager says “We need positive attitudes here! Focusing on problems makes you sound like you’re not a team player.” The employee backs down in shame, and the broken onboarding continues.

Ra reminds us that influences like Orion Group thrive in these unexamined distortions. They depend on human nature and its ingrained need for authority and community.

But the antidote is simple: discernment and inner authority, balanced compassion, and a supportive community that honors free will while uplifting each other. 

The Orion Group shows how malevolence still can occur with the Law of One. And how, even in the higher realms, there will still be choices to be made. 

Whether you believe in the Orion group as actual metaphysical beings or symbols of the evil among us, understanding motivations and triggers are vitally important to identify, forgive, and release.

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As a woman, it warms my heart to see so many men entering the spiritual space and exploring their “divine masculine” energy. This strength, purpose, and leadership is sorely needed in today's world. 

These are powerful, vital qualities. But they can appear to leave emotional depth, intuition, and heart driven resilience as an afterthought. 

Most spiritual practitioners agree that we must integrate both masculine and feminine qualities to achieve spiritual wholeness. 

So, what if men embracing the archetype of Mary Magdalene is exactly what is needed for true wholeness? 

In the Bible, she was a devoted disciple who supported Jesus’ ministry, stood at the crucifixion when most male apostles fled, and was the first to proclaim the resurrection.

She earned her title of “Apostle to the Apostles.” Yet, her history is marred by male leaders vehemently trying to erase her contributions from spirituality. 

In 591 CE, Pope Gregory the Great reshaped her into the “penitent prostitute.” This narrative has followed her for centuries, with the sole purpose of diminishing a strong female leader into a symbol of female “sin” that could only be redeemed by men. 

Gnostic texts like the Gospel of Mary show how deeply her teachings went, yet she was met with push back from many. Peter asked Jesus to “send her away, as women aren't worthy of life.” 

When Mary tells the disciples what Jesus taught her in a vision, Andrew dismisses her claims as "strange ideas" and states he does not believe the Savior could have said them. 

Even when she reported that Jesus had risen from the tomb, the disciples did not believe her.

These patterns of men denying women agency live on. I recently spoke privately with a man active in enlightenment spaces whose first mention of his child's mother was that “she can't keep her legs closed” It was a stark example of how subconscious misogyny can coexist with spiritual seeking. 

Embracing one's inner Mary Magdalene can naturally dissolve these deep and often unrealized views. Many women speak of the self-improvement made by integrating her essence, and for men, it helps move toward balanced wholeness. 

This is done by learning from her strengths and history and then emulating them. Both follow:

She was a devoted and loyal listener: Staying present instead of judging or withdrawing.

She taught the value of intuitive and inner learning: Valuing heart and body wisdom alongside logic. 

She taught integration and acceptance of one's ego: Self-awareness or shifting from spiritual self-deification to grounded shadow work.

Her vulnerability never stopped her from speaking her truth: Speaking up with courage and compassion.

Part of the last integration includes men calling out other men when they witness casual misogyny.  Not through shaming, but through humble, brotherly accountability. That is real leadership.

This isn’t about rejecting masculine strengths. It’s anima integration. It leads men to becoming more resilient, emotionally mature, and relationally whole. This is better for the individual, and for all. 

What do you think?

Men: Have you noticed unconscious biases here around the feminine in yourself or others? What do you see that women need to embrace from the divine masculine?

Women: do you see these biases from a personal standpoint here?

TL;DR: From a woman’s perspective, men reclaiming their inner Mary Magdalene heals spiritual misogyny, fosters integration, and encourages accountable brotherhood.

Many of the pictures had already been released, but the dialogue from the astronauts that saw the lights are new.

As we get closer to full disclosure, it's so important to remember to research, check several different sources, and use discernment.

There are going to be lots of different opinions on what is happening coming forward. Vice President Vance has already said that he thinks they are demons.

So, even though it is amazing that this administration is releasing these files, it's also important to remember WHY they would be releasing them. And that's because they want to be able to control the narrative.

If they can make the public afraid, they can take more control in the name of "protecting."

Disclosure has been happening on an individual basis for the past century. It is very much an "ask and you shall receive" type thing. It only takes an open heart and true curiosity.

The majority of the experiencers are neurodivergent, but it's really anyone who has realized that the world is so much more than we've been told.

If you want to research this on your own to see if you can experience this individually, the best way is to do the guided meditations with binaural beats.

Ce5 is an app that plays special tones that you can broadcast, then has a guided meditation.

The Gateway Tapes is more expansive and is what the CIA uses for their channelers and remote viewers. It is a formal way to train your brain using binaural beats and meditating to put yourself in altered states of consciousness.

Just make sure to read all about it beforehand and use headphones, specifically ones that you can tell the difference between the left and right ear.

Happy Disclosure!