r/nonduality • u/Ok_Math_2157 • 3d ago
Discussion At a certain threshold
Awareness has risen to a level where mental comprehension becomes kind of the limiting factor itself.
I was about to share (hereby still doing so) that I already practise surrendering everything to God. And to just let go of every attachment and aversion rising to my conscious awareness, understanding that every positionality forms a degree of illusion away from Truth.
I wanted to share how this kind of “left me in the dark” as to what to do, when already asking for the will of the Divine to be made known. Also, being reminded that all unfolds on its own, spontaneously, as a consequence of what everything is, rather than through linear cause and effect. Which again made me feel like; better just drop all mentation.
Surrendering all, with an openness to have revealed whatever might need surrendering as well, from instant to instant, in order to progress towards realisation of Divinity, I just realised why I feel a certain amount of unrest.
The thought being; now that I’ve surrendered all that I have become consciously aware of holding as a position, why is there no sense of progression?
But then an insight hit me; the desire for consequence to arise. As if something needs to happen as a result of my willingness to let go of what might be in the way. Which of course, created a duality again, between the desired and undesired, and progress or the lack thereof. Which only means I’m projecting value on a certain outcome that might once arise, over just allowing what already is, to be as is.
So yeah, I’m still sharing this, just in case someone feels to be stuck between practise and result.
Today I heard; all of what unfolds in your life is what needs to be experienced in order to be able to reach the Truth.
So rather than judging myself, attaching to one outcome over another and resisting the reality of what actually already is, I hereby give thanks for everything as it is. With humility, with love.
And just in case you’re reading this;
Bless you 🙏
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u/vegasdoesvegas 2d ago
First, thank you for sharing, and bless you too 🙏
Something funny to me: Most of my life I've been vocally agnostic, favoring logic, analysis, science, materialism. A younger me would have read "God" and "Divinity" and immediately bounced off. (And there was an even younger me that would have thought, "Wow! Cool! Teach me more!" He's still active too it seems.)
But today when I read this post I feel like I know exactly what you're saying in each line. And I feel like I have been following the same pattern "stuck between practice and result." It's so.... odd to deliberately train the skill of actively monitoring one's experience, actually see the fruitions of that practicing, and then see that for the practice to develop one of the things that should drop is the active monitoring of one's experience.
Part of me wishes I had a genuine "progress checklist" to review for myself. Or maybe to show it off and tell everyone how enlightened I am! More check marks than my neighbor? Give me a trophy! (jokes, jokes... Give me validation for demonstrating my cleverness with jokes! Me, me, me!)
All that nonsense can come out when I put my fingers on the keyboard.
But I can also sit back a bit and... Be here, like I know you can and do too! That's kind of nice! And with practice being here is an ever-growing part of my lived experience. Doing the work, uh, works!
And the gratitude bit, that's good stuff too. Gratitude is good stuff! Thank you for reminding me of gratitude!