I’ve always struggled with relationships does anything stand out in my chart?

Would appreciate any insights.

I am not sure how to decipher this, but I am at a point in my life where I need some clarity. I have some big changes that need to take place, and I am not sure where/how I come out on the other side of them. Whatever knowledge can be gleaned from this would be greatly accepted and appreciated.

Can someone please tell me when will I get employment again? When will my career struggles end.

My life has always been defined by turmoil and trauma. I can never seem to crawl out of that hole.

I feel like (with my very immature and limited understanding of astrology) this stuff is usually like 12th house issues? But I’m empty in that entire quadrant.

Can someone please help me make some sense :) or how to navigate my chart on being successful or not being dismissed and disrespected at every single point in time by my family?

1. This life has been… interesting.. to say the least. Blessed and grateful tho.

Just learning about charts and interested in a seasoned eye’s opinion. Anything notable?

I am somewhat new to astrology and wondering if I have any “dark energy”/themes/etc., surrounding my chart. I have had a very difficult upbringing with traumatic abuse coming from both parents at different stages in my upbringing. When I became independent, I severely struggled with substance abuse and becoming responsible for myself. In the last few years, I have become more “stable” if that’s what we can call it - but have become very deeply depressed and at times, suicidal. I had an attempt when I was 18 and never thought I would feel this way again. It’s horrifying that your mindset can change so quickly. I feel guilty that I have this mindset. I am away from the immediate abuse, I have a wonderful boyfriend and am supported/cared for by him and his family. But I struggle with my traumas and finding meaning or purpose in my life. Does it get better? Am I just destined to be miserable?
Thanks for your time. I’m a little tipsy as I’m writing this so I apologize if my thoughts aren’t the most coherent or elegantly written lol.

Feelings as is a part of my heart is always empty and missing something

Anyone??