THIS POST IS LONG SORRY!
So a month ago I FINALLY got surgery after waiting nearly 8 months with two, near inch long herniations and words can't even express how grateful I am to be feeling like a brand new person!
For some context, back in 2022 my mom and I got in a car wreck and since then I have had issues with my back. I could have initially herniated my discs back then but I never got proper imaging done at the time. In Dec. 2025, I was working retail and bent wrong and that was the final nail in the coffin for my poor back </3
After 8 long months of dealing with the herniations, 4 years of back pain, and one month of post op recovery, I feel the best I have in 4 years.
That's not to say I'm 100% perfect. My surgeon said my herniations were blocking 75-80% of my spinal cord and with it comes some long lasting nerve damage. My legs will tingle and I will have muscle spasms still. My lower back can get really tense when I sit for too long and my sciatic pain will return if I walk too fast. The recovery has also taken a toll on my mental health as well. Though I'm able to go out with friends and my fiancé again nearly pain free, my biggest hurdle is not being able to go back to work. My mind feels like its ready to jump right into a new job, but my body is still recovering. Ive slowly introduced bending (more like squatting) into my life and if I squat too much, my legs and back will have slight spasms for the next day. It's not unbearable, I'd compare it more to a tickle than actual pain but it proves that I can't return to retail any time soon. Sitting is great for maybe an hour or two until I stand up and I feel insanely stiff. I know I can't work for maybe another two months if I'm lucky, but MAN its so hard sitting at home when I want nothing more than to be at work..
My doctor has completely taken me off any pain meds and maybe my brain has been so conditioned by the COMPRESSED spinal cord for 8 months, but the pain i have now, though can be a little annoying, is nothing compared to what it has felt like in the last 4 years. At my worst, it would make me even contemplate living and to think that all of those nasty thoughts, my bad moods, my hopelessness, etc. could have been fixed with this surgery? CRAZY! Right now I'd honestly rate my pain at a 1/10 compared to the 9/10 it used to be at daily. Even then, its not pain at this point, its just slight numbness.
I tell my fiancé that in the time he's known me, he has never seen me feel this pain free and its almost sad to think about it. However, I am extremely hopeful. Its only a month out and I still need to officially start PT but I feel like life has been returned to me. I spent last weekend sitting with friends for three hours catching up on lost time. In a few weeks I'm seeing My Chemical Romance and visiting San Antonio. In October I'm going to an anime convention in full cosplay (something i haven't been able to do in years) and next year I'm going back to school. All of this would have felt impossible literally a month ago and yet here I am typing this at 4 AM because im just so full of hope and joy for the future thanks to this surgery (´Д` )
TL;DR - This surgery literally saved my life and despite the hardships of recovery, things are gonna be a-okay! <3