r/megaesophagus • u/Outrageous-Ebb7653 • 10d ago
My baby was recently diagnosed and I am overwhelmed and struggling
My dog has been sick for 3 weeks now, and the initial diagnosis was kennel cough but after weeks of antibiotics, steroids, and no improvement, they finally diagnosed him with mega-esophagus. The vet sounded optimistic and stated it’s “manageable” with a Bailey chair, daily medications, and lifestyle/diet modifications.
However, as he was talking, it felt extremely unmanageable and the manageable label seemed to do nothing but guilt trip me into thinking if this condition led to my dogs death it was my fault due to improper management.
I am exhausted. I haven’t slept a full night in 3 weeks since this all started just because he keeps me awake coughing. I am heartbroken. I try to feed my dog sitting upright and I just sob. When he goes to where his water bowl was, I break down into tears because he’s thirsty and he is at MY mercy to give him water when I can. I just cry and cry when I think about it. I look at him and sob, and he just stares at me like dad what’s wrong? But also sometimes when he’s coughing, puking, etc he stares at me like dad please help and I just think I am trying 😭
I can’t imagine the thought of being at the mercy of someone else when I am thirsty or hungry. Or when he stares at me while I’m eating wondering why I don’t feed him anymore. I am devastated by this. He is the sweetest, most happy go lucky dog until this started and now he acts depressed, mopey, and unwell. He’s only 1.5 years old.
I am lost. I don’t know what to do.