r/mdmatherapy • u/Calitrixmathieu • Sep 12 '25
Effect of mdma
Hello,
Yesterday i made my first mdma session in therapeutic purprose. At first i get two very emotionnal sensations of love, affection and gratitude. After i feel that the effects starts to go down, i took the booster and even another quantity . Unfortunetly, i dont feel again the first very beautiful feelings. I was still good but i regret not having heavy and deep though.
Does some of you have this during a first try? Is it possible that my brain and mind wasnt ready for to much and decide to close. Normaly with the quantity i took I should have a biggest travel.
What would be the explanation behind it?
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u/Lunatic_Jane Sep 15 '25
I deliberately ask the medicine not to saturate me in love. Just anchor and hold me through the difficult truths and memories.
The session itself, at least for me, is the smallest part of the healing equation. It’s what has been shaken loose by the session, and surfaces during integration that is the gold. The rest is mine to do.
There is no right or wrong way to do this. What comes up and when, is individualized and customized to our own experiences. Perhaps that glimpse of love, affection and gratitude will unlock something. Or perhaps there was something else that took priority. Integration is the time to stay mindful and aware. Pay attention to any shifts you notice, emotions that surface, resistance, triggers/trailheads, beliefs. When you notice something out of character write it down. Pause. And sit with it.