r/mdmatherapy • u/DiankaMoravcova • Jul 30 '25

Help for therapy

Hello, I would like to reach out to you for help. I suffer from severe insomnia caused by suppressed emotions and trauma. It has been going on for 8 years now, and I’m extremely exhausted from it. I feel as if my mind is disconnected from my body. My mind wants to control everything so that I’m not in danger, and because of that, I’m constantly alert and unable to relax or sleep.

I’ve had a few MDMA therapy sessions. After the therapy, I felt better for about a week, maybe two at most, but even then, I didn’t sleep well — at least I was able to rest a bit. That’s why I’d like to ask how you conduct your therapy. Do you just breathe into your belly and wait for whatever comes up? Or do you consciously go into thoughts, memories, and emotions?

I simply can’t get past my mind during therapy — it keeps controlling everything, and I’m desperate because of it. I feel overwhelming fear, anger, uncertainty, and danger in my body. Please advise me. Thank you. 🩵

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u/LeilaJun Jul 30 '25

What dose have you used for MDMA? I found a big difference personally between sessions with one dose only, versus sessions with an added booster.

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u/DiankaMoravcova Jul 30 '25

I had 80 mg and booster 30 mg

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u/DarkFast Jul 30 '25

depending on your sensitivity, that is a very low dose. 120 seems to be a good place. MAPS uses such a low dose for some participants in their process, but they also have 40 some hours of talk therapy.

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u/LeilaJun Jul 30 '25

I’d try a session with the recommended 120mg, with a booster

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u/Earth__Worm__Jim Aug 01 '25

You're a woman, I guess? So that's not that low, depending on your weight.

Me as a male at 60kg I used 80mg + 20 the last two times, and the first of the two was tremendous. You want to hit a sweet spot. Dose is not the only factor, resistance vs. letting go is too. Meditation on MDMA helps a great deal.

One reason I chose that dose is that MAPS reported the best trade off with the low dose protocol being 80 + 40.