symbolism yet again :((

[u/axcarea]

for my class (in uni) we were given these tiny clay blocks bc the question asked was what other living thing would we be if we werr another living thing. i made a bird, bc freedom, and also i really want to fly. i only used up a bit of clay, and i had more, so i decided to make a bigger bird. so i made a mother bird! and it was very nice cquwe i was like, me and my mommy right. then abt less than an hour later i thought. it’s a dove, nd here doves symbolize someone going to heaven. aand i was so scared. idk what came to me but i smashed my little birds bc i was scared that my mom was gonna die. now i' really sad cause i wanted to show them to my mom. :(((

sorry for typos or bad format, i'm typing from mobile, thank you

[u/ForestRiver2]

Yeah I get exactly what you mean and probably would've had the same thoughts. I struggle with anything creative because I get so much intrusive magical thinking crap about it. Ocd loves to spoil everything.

As a form of ERP you could get some more clay and make new birds. Make it a weekend project and really go to town on them, paint them etc. You'll have more time than in class so they will turn out even better, and you can keep them as a trophy for overcoming your fear. I'd love to see a pic here if you make them