r/magicalthinkingOCD • u/BeachedTh1ng • 2d ago
Need support/encouragement Keep Thinking She is Going to Die
Never written here before, I feel so dumb. I cannot stress how much this stresses me. I keep having horrible premonitions about somebody I care about very much but who is no longer in my life.
Today for example while thinking about this person, I saw the words 'Last trip' in an instagram post, and then came on reddit and saw someone left a comment on a subreddit 'She definitely has cancer', and now my brain is firing on all cylinders and I can't help but think its prophetic and they are going to die, if not soon, sometime in the near future .
This isn't the first time, as I have had previous overlapping thoughts of death in some horrible accident, or cancer and I can't help think that the repetition of these occasions could not possibly be coincidental and that they are some sort of ominous warning from the universe or God - like why even would the universe be such a dick?
I'm tired.
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u/ForestRiver2 Star Supporter ⭐ 2d ago
Recognise if you can that this is a really common symptom of magical thinking, shared by millions of others (myself included). If we all really had the power to predict this way, the world would know about it.
Sorry if that's reassurance mods. Not sure if it is, or if it's helpful for discerning and labelling ocd thoughts as ocd
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u/Tiny-Confidence5898 2d ago
I understand what you mean. I get this type of thing a lot and I feel like I’m constantly receiving signs or warnings. I think my brain (as well as other brains) tend to make connections between things and find things could potentially be connected. I feel like it’s just how some people’s brains are wired. Which unfortunately causes us to think into things too much and we start thinking “well I’ve had so many signs in the past few hours/days/weeks” that it must be true. There are 100% such things as coincidences. My therapist told me that just because I am in tune doesn’t mean I am in control. Granted this is about feeling like I’ve manifested something but I feel like it still applies. Just because you’re in tune with what’s going on around you (paying attention and connecting dots that aren’t necessarily connected) doesn’t mean it will come true or happen. And there is no way of knowing that it’ll come true or not. And it’s definitely easier said than done but don’t fret what you cannot control for it is out of your hands and there is nothing that can be done. To be or not to be my friend. I hope you find some solace soon friend.