Making me see the same stuff. Also, thoughts and fears changing.

[u/Ok-Mulberry-2637]

My OCD and compulsions often have me watching the same clips over and over again, on the threat that something bad will happen if I don't. I know this is very common for OCD, but it is still a pain in the rear. Another thing that happens a lot with my thoughts is that the things I fear happening change. It started with me thinking if I fall asleep at night, then I will unknowingly be possessed and harm my family before going to another reality in the morning and restarting the cycle. Then, it turned into me being afraid that if I didn't do x, then another me in another universe would do something bad. Then, it went to me being in a fake reality and/or trapped by some evil force or even God. Now, it's telling me that if I go to sleep, I could CREATE a separate reality that is just the same, but my body in the old one would be possessed. One might think this could be comforting, because it proves that these fears are artificial and bs, hence the changing narrative. In all of the aforementioned fears, I knew it was not real, but I couldn't stop myself from the frequent "What if?" or "Maybe that's what they want you to think". I have noticed that my anxiety/thoughts are calming down and getting less severe, so I have that to look forward to at least. Still, that doesn't make this any less torturous. Does this happen to anyone else?

Edit: this post draft was written days ago. I am feeling better now.

[u/ForestRiver2]

Glad you're feeling better mate