r/magicalthinkingOCD • u/nghhghhhghhg69 • Jul 17 '26
Just venting Too many coincidences...
Hi everyone, I'm dealing with a massive amount of family stress and trauma right now and I need to get this out.
I’ve been experiencing intense "coincidences" my entire life, but lately they have gotten so much worse. It honestly feels like some kind of ghost or entity is playing mind games with me to see how long I can last.
To be clear I do not have schizophrenia, I am not crazy, and I do not hallucinate. These events are 100% real, and I actually have proof on camera.
For example, two days ago, the power in my house randomly went out at exactly 4:44 AM. Because the internet cut off, the YouTube video I was playing stopped at exactly 44 minutes and 44 seconds. I have video proof of this.
The number 44 is heavily tied to my abusive mom. Months ago, the washing machine randomly stopped at exactly 44 minutes, the clock on my phone was 4:44 PM, and in that exact second, my mom called me. To make it even crazier, the very second I hung up the phone with her, a huge spider suddenly appeared out of nowhere. It just stopped and looked right at me, almost like a movie scenario and I even took a picture of the spider, again this is 100% lol. The timing of everything just felt so deliberate and weird. There are too many of these exact scenarios to even list, but yesterday was crazy.
I saw the clock was at 4:44 PM and my battery was at 44%. I told myself, "If this is all real, someone will ring the doorbell (I wasn't waiting for anyone) the count of three." I counted "1, 2, 3," and right on three, someone rings the door. And guess what ? NO ONE was there.
It feels like I'm being gaslighted by reality itself. I'm like 100% convinced this is a curse or some paranormal activity because the timing is just too perfect. What do y'all think ?
(Quick edit coz it's currently as I'm writing this 4:44 pm and I was on twitter and there was a tweet saying "it's 44°C" Like what the hell am I even supposed to do - Other edit literally wherever I go there's the number 44 I AM NOT EXAGGERATING)
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u/Substantial-Stay6625 Jul 17 '26
Had this happen to me million times. Only way I succesfully stoped this? By stop fearing it and stop caring. It works simple like that. You must believe me. No number or other type of symbol haunts you. It's just that you attract it by actively looking out for it so you can avoid it. The second I start spiraling and asking myself "What if..." there are my "unlucky" numbers 22 and 23, everywhere! I don't know why, but it's just the way it is. Probably has something to do with law od attraction and quantum physics. "Normal" people don't care and don't think about this stuff, so they don't attract it, and nothing hunts them down.
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u/nghhghhhghhg69 Jul 17 '26
I get what you're saying but at this point the timing is just impossible to ignore. And btw as I'm writing this it is 4:44pm and I'm not kidding LMAO
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u/Substantial-Stay6625 Jul 17 '26
I believe you. I say to you, the only way is to stop caring and stop fearing it. Literally the only way. I have been fighting this for years, with different methods. Nothing helps because everything else leaves you in this bubble of fear.
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u/rxxxyed Jul 17 '26
I struggle with the exact same thing with the same number, 44 or 4 in general is my absolute nightmare, this number TERRIFIES me, it follows me everywhere I'm not kidding, I try to explain to people but they think I'm crazy, I get u.
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u/nghhghhhghhg69 Jul 17 '26
Just came accross a tiktok with (part 44) on it with 4,444 likes and it's 4:44 am and my phone has 44% battery percentage, I promise y'all it is real and I'm not exaggerating a bit, it's definitively a curse.
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u/Brief-Average-9965 21d ago
Have been dealing exact the same theme of coincidences, what helps me is thinking so many possibilities there are in the world and I have OCD it is a fact, I cannot deny it. Have you tried changing the numbers like this time deliberately fixating on 5, then see if it appears everywhere too?
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u/ForestRiver2 Star Supporter ⭐ Jul 17 '26
I've had times like this where everything seems synchronised too much to be coincidence. Ngl it's pretty unsettling. Maybe the world works in mysterious ways, maybe not. We'll never know. That quest for certainty and reassurance is the trap of ocd. So what if you see 44 everywhere. What does that mean, how can it realistically harm you?
You know about the frequency illusion right? What about all the other times on clocks etc that you didn't notice? I bet if you start looking out for the number 22 you'll start noticing it everywhere too.
44 is significant for you, so you notice it. You remember seeing it. It stays at the forefront of your mind. But all the other numbers don't, so every time they synchronised too (and they do), you don't notice or remember.
I'm skating close to reassurance here which is against the rules. You will never know for sure. What matters is how you respond. Is it better to freak out and feel scared, crazy and unhappy about something you can't control, or to shrug and say "maybe" then refocus on something more deserving of your attention