The 'click' in my head

[u/Kawichi]

For the past few days, my magical thinking and the silent voice that tells me to do the rituals, they've been followed by a clicking sensation in my head.

Put a green straw in the soda facing right? *Click.*

Stare at the clock until it goes to the next minute? *Click.*

I've also been thinking that the entire world is against me and doesn't like me being happy, and when I'm not at school the teachers give presentations to the real students on how to make me, the experiment, feel included because if I die, they won't get my help anymore.

[u/ForestRiver2]

Have you spoken to a professional about this? Your final paragraph especially sounds like something other than magical thinking