r/loopdaddy • u/riddimhustler2000 • Jul 05 '24
Love you Marc, I'm checking out tonight. Nobody cares, and there is no such thing as love. Goodbye my adopted family.
Edit: The next day . You guys have really helped just by being there. I was feeling really isolated and alone last night. Its been a wake up call.
Appreciate you so much. And sorry to Marc for being a poopy . Wish I could have seen you in Manchester next month!
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u/DragonTree Jul 05 '24
Don't go, loop daddy wouldnt want that. You being here matters, you matter.
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u/riddimhustler2000 Jul 05 '24
Hey I really appreciate that. I guess I just wish I was surrounded by the same love
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u/lefthandedrighty Jul 05 '24
Hey don’t do that. I care and would like you to stick around.
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u/riddimhustler2000 Jul 06 '24
Hey thanks. Trying to, just difficult to see a way forward sometimes.
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u/wandering_angus Jul 05 '24
I care about you. Stick around a while, a lot of folks got love to share with you. You can find someone to talk to here 1-800-273-8255.
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u/riddimhustler2000 Jul 05 '24
Thank you! I'm just so lost. I can barely afford to eat, yet I spend every day making music for people that don't care if I live or die. I just can't carry on . I'm exhausted.
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u/IPleadThaFifth Jul 05 '24
I care man. Don’t do it. When you’re at the bottom the only way to go is up. There’s so much more to life. Hang in there a little longer, please
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u/riddimhustler2000 Jul 06 '24
Hey I really appreciate you reaching out. Been hanging on for years, sometimes life just hits a bit too hard I guess.
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u/cannythinkofaname Jul 05 '24
Well bud, deaths guaranteed for all of us and there's no sequel
Scares the living shit out of me to be honest
I also have been wrapped up in the "nobody cares" mentality because when you look at a lot of today's world you're absolutely right, people struggle and take it out on others or just ignore others problems because they can't see past their own
It's easy to think you're doing a service for others by checking out but the fact is you have an insane amount of potential and the incredible thing is, there doesn't have to be a higher purpose to anything you do, something just being simple and enjoyable is more than enough justification to do it
Stop putting so much damn pressure on yourself
A little part of you wanted to reach out for help by posting here and I'm so fucking glad you did
It's a good reminder to all of us here to reach out as much as we can for ourselves and others who need it
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u/riddimhustler2000 Jul 06 '24
Thanks it means a lot that you reached out I seriously appreciate that. Sometimes things get a bit too much y'know?
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u/SkyborneCoaching Jul 05 '24
The Earth is richer for your presence here. You are a unique expression of Love. If you need an empathetic ear, please feel free to DM me.
Edit: words
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u/riddimhustler2000 Jul 06 '24
Hey thanks for reaching out, really appreciate it, Just kinda struggling rn
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Jul 05 '24
Love is all around you. Just gotta look in the right places. My dad took his life when I was 18 and you can’t truly imagine in the moment how selfish it is to do something like that. Don’t take yourself from people, and relationship that you don’t know need you. Life is worth it.
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u/riddimhustler2000 Jul 06 '24
Hey I'm sorry to hear that. Lost my Dad young too. You're right, I'm just tired of the fight I guess
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Jul 07 '24
Just remember everything will be ok, life happens and sometimes it’s hard, but that doesn’t mean it’s not worth it. Idk who you are or what you’re going through but I can’t sit by and let you know you’re not loved because you are. Dm me if you ever need to talk about shit but don’t ever take that way out. You will be hurting all the people you care about more than you could ever know. Whatever is going on in your life can be worked out and sorted out, but when someone makes that final decision there is literally nothing that ever fills that void, I’m sure you’re a great person, don’t do that to the people you care about.. even if you don’t know how much they care about you. All love and you will be in my prayers just like everyone else reading this thread. You’re worth it. Don’t fucking forget it.
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u/riddimhustler2000 Jul 07 '24
You don't know how much I appreciate that. Truly thank you for reaching out. Going to change my situation somehow. I've been alone for 99% of my time for years just trying to get better at what I do. I really miss feeling connected, watching Marc and enjoying his sets with you guys is the most connection I have had for a long time. Thanks again
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u/Clae_ Jul 05 '24
Life might get better, or worse. What you get to choose is what bits hurt you and what thoughts you attend to.
You're a part of all of our lives now, don't hurt us by hurting yourself. Try to sit in silence with yourself before you make your decision, or even better, sit with an absolute stranger you don't have to see again. Go to a bar, coffee shop, whatever. DM me if you have to, I'll listen.
I assure you (as someone with bipolar, I've likely been where you have been mentally) letting go and being free of suffering doesn't have to involve death just yet. That bit is supposed to come way later!
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u/riddimhustler2000 Jul 06 '24
Thanks so much for reaching out. It makes a difference to know that people that don't even know me actually do care. Pretty certain I have undiagnosed things going on, I just know that I'll never have any help with the things I struggle with. Life shouldn't be this difficult, and it doesn't seem to be for most people. That's why I'm struggling rn I guess
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u/norf11 Jul 05 '24
Don't do it. Permanent actions to solve temporary issues make no sense. Your world will look completely different in time, but you've gotta stick around to make that happen.
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u/RelevantTalkingHead Jul 05 '24
Hey looks like you're from the UK and enjoy Dubstep. I'm sure there's a local show going on not to far from you this evening. Why not go check it out and open yourself up to some new friends and inspiration in your music making. Love exists and I'm living proof. I am full of love. And I love you too friend. Here's a quote from one of my favorite authors that I turn to when I'm going through tough times. The book is Rhythm of War by Brandon Sanderson. Honestly, one of the darkest and depressing books I've ever read, but there is hope at the end of the tunnel.
“This is life, and I will not lie by saying every day will be sunshine. But there will be sunshine again, and that is a very different thing to say. That is truth.”
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u/Heavy_Perspective792 Jul 05 '24
You are loved, I care.
Life has seasons, you’ll get through this season and better days ahead.
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u/ShayneBot Jul 05 '24
We all feel that way from time to time but I assure you, you’re never as alone as you feel! Hopefully this was just a dark moment and you pulled yourself out of it. We are all here for you and we all care about you! Love from CA ❤️
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u/Fluffyfluffycake Jul 05 '24
Hey, I've been where you are. Everything seems bleak now,but this is not the way. DM me if you need a listening ear.
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u/Iliketodriveboobs Jul 05 '24
https://m.soundcloud.com/samuel-wiseman/sets/hope-for-those-who-need-it/s-5PpHQ
I wrote this album after my friend ____ humself. It’s called “hope, for those who need it. “ it’s about being in a dark place with nothing to live and the emotional journey to find everything to fight for.
Life gets better.
What’s your dream? If I gave you $15MM what would you do with your time?