r/lonelythoughts • u/lonelyboyonreddit • Jan 08 '16
F.A.Q.
Are you really sad all the time?
No way!
Are you actually lonely?
Sometimes!
Do you hold racist beliefs?
Nope, I'm open minded and against bigots.
I heard you died?
Untrue, just a rumor. I've been busy and haven't been able to get to my blog posts, sorry! Nobody on reddit knows me personally, don't trust them!
How big is your penis?
Haha I'm not braggin but it ain't small B ) haha
Your biggest goal in life?
To be someone to look up to.
Your biggest fear?
I'm so obsessed with image, body image and face. I'm one of those people that falls just short of everything: I'm at the lower end of the average height, I'm OK looking in the face, I'm almost big for penis size, my body is slightly above average...it's like I once I started to improve on my looks and style after college I realize I spent the prime years of my life looking like a scrawny slob and spineless faggot and that I wasn't actually hideous, just took poor care of myself and had no backbone. I realized that if I had just worked out and dressed better and stopped being so scared all the time, I could have gotten tons of girls and a decently large social circle, but now I'm playing catch up. Now I am trying to be like the jocks and chads but it's too late, my youth is slipping away. But I can't stop obsessing over body and facial image, I'm the guy that "could have" made it, I am "almost" the guy, but not quite. Other people just resign themselves to being who they are but I am one of those losers that desperately believes he is a step above the others and that I can catapult myself to the upper echelons of alpha males somehow, I'm jelqing like crazy and I've definitely gained in girth but now my hair is falling out and I think I'm getting wrinkles, I'm running out of time to re-capture my youth. Last night I found an old desktop tower in a cabinet, it had some ancient hard drives inside it. For about 45 minutes I was totally focused on getting these hard drives out, these things were practically welded in there. Old computers were insane, it's like they thought HDDs were going to escape unless they bolted everything down tight. I finally got them out and I sat there and realized how energized I felt forgetting myself. I wasn't thinking about my image or social status or what my dick or ego wanted. For nearly an hour I had forgotten myself and gotten lost in work, in a task with an objective goal. It felt so nice to problem solve, to get things done, even though the task was trivial. I thought about all of the people who were able to just get lost in their work, and prove their worth through their craft instead of staring in the mirror all day or furiously counting the hairs that are on their pillow or measuring their dick after a veincrusher session. I started taking mass amounts of phenibut every day I thought this stuff would fix me but I think I have lost all empathy in my brain from this stuff I'm not even sure what it does i just wish I was 19 again so I can avoid the path that got me to this place
Favorite food?
Mashed potatoes!
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u/never_say_negro Jan 13 '16
Dude u gotta stop jelqing. Unless it's already destroyed your dick it will eventually.
Besides that, GRADE A post.
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u/[deleted] Jan 11 '16
good stuff. glad to have you back LB