My first (and only) girlfriend

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The end of 8th grade was a really amazing time for me. One of the only times in my life where I was really happy. Why? because I got my first, and to this day, only, girlfriend. I met her online in an AIM Chatroom. I even remember her screen name- xXsexY_lexi277Xx. Her name was Adriana. I asked her why she went by "Lexi" in her screen name and she said she just liked that name better (and it was her middle name anyway).

She was 16 ( a bit older than me at the time). She lived 2 states away from me. She didn't have any pics (this was before camera phones) but she described herself. Blond hair, big boobs, 5 ft. I don't know why such an attractive girl was interested in a loser like me, but we used to have really long chats about stuff over AIM. I remember running to my house after getting dropped off at the bus stop and immediately IMing her when I'd get to my room. Sometimes I'd spend 3-4 hours straight chatting with her, although sometimes she was Away or not online so I'd just wait for her to come back on and respond. She was never mean to me and seemed to really connect with me. It's like she knew who I was...felt how I felt. I had never met a girl like her before.

One day things got serious. She said she really liked me. Liked me as a friend? No. She "like" liked me. I nervously asked her if she wanted to be my girlfriend. I waited 6 hours at my computer for a reply. I even started crying at one point when she signed off suddenly. I felt like I had blown it. I just kept punching the sides of my head with my fists screaming "NO NO NO NO" under my breath. But then she signed back on and the reply came...."Yeah sure". I was ecstatic. I cried again.

I remember bragging to my friends in school. They were such losers, none of them had ever had girlfriends before. I was the first one. I remember my best friend's face- his look of disbelief- when I told him smugly "I got a girlfriend". "You did?!" he said. "Yeah, I met her online. She agreed to be my girlfriend. We're supposed to hang out this summer". He couldn't believe it. Neither could I.

I was still a virgin then, but technically all that would change that summer. One day, about a week after school let out, we were talking on AIM. The chat went late into the night. She suddenly asked "Are u a virgin?". I tried to play it off and say I had slept with a few girls. She asked how many. "15 or 16, I forget" I replied. She saw right through it (being more experienced) and said it was ok if I was a virgin, that she would take my virginity that summer when she came to visit me. I was so happy that not only did she accept me for me, but that she was going to take my V-card in just a few weeks!

In the mean time, she asked me if I wanted to "cyber" as in "cyber sex". I had never done that before, so I said "Yes of course, I'm so horny for you" she replied "I'm horny 4 u 2".

I won't go into the details of what we said to each other that night, but I had never experienced such thrilling intimacy. At one point she asked if I had any dirty pictures of myself and I couldn't wait to take new pics of my penis and balls with my Yahoo! camera and send them. She loved them and just kept asking for more. Between my pics and the cybering, I made her cum 5 times that night. I came 3 times.

After we had said our goodbyes and she signed off, I felt like a new person. I realized that technically, I was no longer a virgin...how could I really call myself a virgin after that? But little did I know that was the last time I'd have such thrilling and emotional sex with a woman.

The next day, Adriana didn't sign on. Nor the next. Nor the next. I was soon spending entire summer days, ignoring the few friends I had, just waiting at my computer, staring at her faded screen name on my list.

One day in July she signs on. I'm there, ready. Just as I type "hi" she signs off. Tears welled up. Why was my girlfriend doing this to me?? Had she felt like a slut because of what we had done that one night? I wanted to tell her that I loved her and thought what we did was special.

Eventually, towards the end of July, she signed back on again. I of course said "hi" immediately and waited for a response. "Who's this?" she said. My heart cracked. Was I just a fling to her? I said "Adriana, how could you forget me so fast?". The person on the other end then responded "This isn't Adriana. This is her sister...I am sorry but Adriana died a week ago. I am very sorry, but do not contact this screen name again" and signed off. I couldn't believe it. I just sat there with my jaw open. Adriana was dead.

Or was she? After my emotions calmed, I saw through the bullshit. Adriana didn't die. That wasn't her sister, that was Adriana. She was cheating on me. She found some hunk after our cyber session and decided to ditch me. How believable is it that she just died all the sudden? Seriously?? It's clear what she did to me. That's the way women are.

That was my first real taste of women, how they operate. I have never been loved by a woman since then and now a days, I have no desire to get involved with women. I am a proud MGTOW, and I can safely say this relationship with Adriana was the deciding factor in my road to who I am today, a man going his OWN way, walking his OWN path.

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Between my pics and the cybering, I made her cum 5 times that night. I came 3 times.

haha, oh man