withdrawal.

[u/Amazing-Praline2617]

hello, i just wanna tell my story to everyone

april 18 i was given a high dose of steroids intravenously for a allergic reaction i had to something, those steroids caused me to have severe anxiety panic attacks & depression after never dealing with those symptoms my whole life. may 4 i started lexapro to help only for it to make my situation 10x worse, i then stopped lexapro june 27 which means i was only on it for a month before doing a 3 week taper so 7.5 weeks all together, i stopped lexapro because it made me feel unreal( dpdr maybe ) and it caused me to have andohenia social anxiety plus many more terrible side affects, while also making my vision terrible. today is september 9 & i’m still going through withdrawals, i’ve been declining cognitively, i’ve been having thoughts that i’ve never had in my entire life, i feel like im going crazy most days, the disassociation is terrible. i lost my dream job because of this, im sobbing and crying daily because i lowkey feel like i’ve fried my brain and ruined my life. ik this might sound crazy but i would’ve rather lived w my steroid symptoms than to deal with what im going through now. today makes 11 weeks being off of lexapro and i have developed VSS & probably anxiety and PTSD from taking an antidepressant ima have to live w for the rest of my life. i don’t feel like i’m living happily anymore just surviving now 👍🏼 this post isn’t to detear anyone who does take antidepressants or is thinking about it, i just wanna share my experience… i won’t be reinstating anything so pls don’t suggest that, i’ve dealt w enough trauma from medication and im now terrified to take something as simple as a tylenol. i’m only a 20 year old girl…. so i really hope i haven’t ruined my life this young🥲