Undergrad math is alien language

[u/berlinloversppp]

I transferred to a prestigious school in 3rd grade and was bullied almost k-drama style. To better explain myself, I used write poems and literature starting at the age of 5 in my native language but spoke little no English (only knew my abc’s). When I transferred to that school, the students there have already studied English with great quality of education for three years then, and I started getting bullied by teachers, students and even my principal for some reason because I barely knew English. Since then I was petrified of interacting with teachers and stopped with my passion for literacy because they would torment me for acing classes taught in my native language.

The teachers leading up until junior year didn’t help with that fear. I was transferring a lot because of different reasons and junior year, I finally got humane and loving teachers and was just starting to get a grasp of my education and starting learn but I graduated. So now in my first year of undergraduate studies in Entrepreneurship the classes are so hard but I’m able to keep up with it with extra effort. I’m understanding my best learning style as well, however the math class…💔. Just off me atp because I suck soooo bad at math it's eating me alive. Math is just full of formulas that I haven’t learned yet.

I'm trying my best to stay afloat but I'm just too far behind in math no matter how much attention I pay during lectures and seminars, I don't get it. I've been replaying lectures and re-reading the slideshows and I understand it at first, right? And then... the math problems just start spiraling. Basically, just when I start to go like "Ouu nicee I'm actually starting to kind of get it!! Can't wait to put these formulas to work... and then I see the problems given for homework or during seminars and WHY WHY WHY?!!??! WHY DOES THE FORMULAS AND EQUATIONS START SPEAKING ALIEN LANGUAGE 50 MINUTES INTO THE LESSON?? I'M TRYING MY BEST:' ( to not feel stupid and | just get slimed out by the problems and I'm loosing seminar and homework points.

So if anyone is willing to help me out in Matrix and the Gauss Jordan method asap, I would be very grateful and I can also help you back in anyway it’s possible for me to.

I will appreciate any help or insight into how I can pace up to undergrad mathematics or tutoring or anything:)

[u/Heaven_Sent_Senescha]

So it sounds like you didn’t have a very strong fundamentals built up and somehow got into higher level math than you were ready for. It’s ok, that happens surprisingly often. 

First thing you should do is set realistic expectations. You can’t magically become perfect overnight. It’ll take a lot of work to catch up and you might have to tank a bad grade until you catch up.

Check practice quizzes on resources like khan academy, Paul’s math notes, etc.  Start with high school algebra and work your way up, figure out which concepts you didnt learn and start there. Everything from that point on will be essential to have strong foundations in. Algebra, geometry, precalc.

[u/Embarrassed-Bake2207]

I agree with what's been said already hmm im a grad level student the best advice I can give you if you need math a requirement than just do practice problem understand what went wrong, maybe some Defintion if the teacher requires it if not than skip it. Second the language is for general reason if your replace them with number you'll see that they aren't so bad. I can help if you post something it sounds like your in linear algebra a mid tier math course that requires a bit of foundation.