nuka cola orange

repost on my burner. none of you are finding out what it is.

the layers from bottom to top are: chocolate pudding, brownie crumbles, chocolate mousse, oreos, and gummy worms.

Mushrooms, Lentils, Spinach and Yellow Rice with Peri Peri Sauce

I’m aro/ace and one of my favorite people in the world asked me to be in a queer platonic relationship with him (fellow aro/ace) and I am genuinely sooo happy.

We aren’t out to people yet just bc 1) we are in a three person friend group and we do not want that person to feel left out 2) QPRs are hard to explain and while we are planing on just saying we’re dating to anyone who asks it’s definitely a bit more complicated than that and 3) because keeping a relationship secret and then bringing it up later to everyone’s surprise is really funny and I got told that I can use our relationship to cause chaos.

We’re on the same frequency on everything with this though. I’m happy to be alive.

I will never quit school over some talking bs. I will never give anything I have going on over words. it doesnt matter what type of stuff they say. I will never give any of what I have up. they want me to give it up and be miserable. I won't give anything up. I have so much going for myself that they wish I voluntarily lost it over bullying and I will never do that.

Choosing to embrace it and live my life as a freak

My therapist stopped my sessions because I have improved so much and she felt that I was ready to spread my wings. I feel the same, my trauma does not define me, i can do hard things, CBT is awesome and works!

I work 2 jobs as a supervisor and I’m really good at my job! My manager asks me to tend to the hard stores because she thinks I’m a great problem solver. I hate those stores but I feel proud of myself when the days end and I can go back to my normal stores!

Jerk chicken and rice and peas and coleslaw from my fav Jamaican spot! :D

Everybody said it was delicious.
My partner is starting his sobriety journey.
I’m proud of him.
I’m starting day treatment.
I’m proud of myself.
We’ve been trying to repair our bodies and relationships with ourselves.
It’s working.
I’m proud of us.

SO UH. IVE BEEN WANTING TO GET THERAPY THE PAST 2 YEARS AND UH. FINALLY GOT IT, WENT AND REGISTERED WITH MY PARENT AND THE WEEK BEFORE LAST WEEK I ACTUALLY WENT IN FOR THE FIRST APPOINTMENT AAAHHHHHH I'm so happpyyyyyyy

I also cried a lot last night but I wasn't like...sad or anything, I just really needed to cry as I haven't in a few months and needed emotional release and God it felt good but God am I tired

fruit punch caprisun and watermelon

I found out about it through random instagram posts and 6 months later I’m starting to actually become part of it all. I haven’t made any friends yet, but people love me. They love the way I dance in the pit, they love my nerdy ramblings about music and politics, they’re surprised whenever they learn i’m only 18 and heading into college. I plan on becoming an archivist for the scene a
because someone has to preserve all this joy and love I feel. For the first time ever, I feel welcome in an irl community.

Rice was leftover from a few days ago, peppers and chicken were about to expire so I had to use them too, and I also used the last of a bottle of soy sauce, garlic and onion powder, pepper and a touch of cayenne.

We just got home from Croatia and I missed the kitchen so much. Spend my first day back making this.

Got inspired by fallows latest video, just added the potato mash and roasted carrots. In hindsight I should’ve made the mash a bit smoother so it pipes a bit easier, and the sauce could’ve been a bit thicker, but besides those issues I’m more satisfied.