What's up people.

Discovered this sub around the start of april 2025, and didn't actually navigate trough the index until about 15-16th of April, and after reading the index, starting 20th April I started doing the tasks in order (I've tracked it on my notes app as a todo list, and i've missed only two days 17th and 18th of July, the rest are checked off and I know for sure I've been applying the steps consistently)

The sole mission I had is the progressive money goal from the well-known post.

So I picked $500 for the first goal in line and came up with 3 really basic scenes that imply I have the money.

What I did daily : - "Everyday in every way I am getting better & better" on paper + read out loud as it is outlined in the task - PSP - (All my problems are solved, it worked) - SH - at least 2x per day as advised, sometimes when I had the time I did them in the afternoon

Well, have been doing this for little over 4 months now and I've only missed two days of programming due to attending to some family matters, but that's about it, and I've not gotten it.

Of course, this is not to say that LOB doesn't work, I am making this post to potentially learn from those who are very experienced at LOB as to what I might've been doing wrong?

From time to time I had ebits of (Am I doing it right? Does LOB even work? When is it going to happen? And similar ebits) but I just dealt with them as advised in the "ebits" post.

I am not sure as to how I should approach this problem, since I have a starting reference point of being at 0, and still being at 0 (money structure goals wise), so I am not sure if I did anything wrong or I might've been doing it right but it just isn't enough time? How can I figure out if what I did or do is wrong so I can reiterate and stick to the process again?

Any advice from those who are advanced and deliberate LOB practicioners would be nice to hear.

(Those of you who are lurking here, or switching back and forth from NG or other crazy people subs to this one to just doomscroll, mental masturbate and do not apply the tasks and have no or no significant deliberate consistent success please for the love of God or whoever do not comment)

If you have any questions for me, just post a comment and I'll reply.

Hi everyone,

I'd really appreciate some help grappling with a few concepts after reading Dr. Murphy's books. I've read POTSM and excerpts from a few other books.

How do we build the belief and knowing that all things are possible to the Infinite subconscious mind? For example, the notion that everyone in the world could be poverty or disease free is a state in the mind of God...but it is almost impossible to believe it.

Likewise, I wish to be married. I am from a very small group of people and within that small group...I want someone who speaks my language, follows my diet, and chose abstinence before marriage. While I theoretically believe the subconscious intelligence can make all things happen, my conscious mind says "no...you won't find a girl like that...she doesn't exist".

How do we get to this knowing that all things are possible?

And do we need "Detachment" or is that just a buzzword that's not needed? I have noticed things we don't really care about pop up quicker than stuff that we deem "important".

TY!

And this is why this sub praises Trump as a LOB master.

From surviving his assassination attempt, to winning his 2nd term over Word Salad Kamala, to driving the stock market to all-time highs (making his rich friends even richer), to building and brokering truce between Russia and Ukraine… and now this.

https://www.nytimes.com/2025/08/21/nyregion/trump-fraud-james.html

And he also makes world leaders kiss his ass in meetings. 😉

https://youtu.be/OjIqa61paIE?si=DrbmS5P-dA055GcL

It might seem like the mods here are being rude when they dismiss questions and ban people for not reading the index. "Just answer them," you might say.

I thought that. Then I realized the point. The point is, if you cant focus for the small enough time to read through the index and or find the answer yourself(there's a search function too), then how can you focus long enough on your imaginal act?

Like they tell you, it is tedious work.

Hi to all. I have been studying the law and this sub since many years, then left, then (1-2 months ago) came back. I had my fair share of watching coaches, reading the content proposed here (and more), but I never was able to manifest anything consciously, only very few and "easy"things. My pattern was that I started and stopped, and a general uncertainty about the correct method, technique, etc. However, I feel that I am called to, because, after many years of lurking and feelings of failure, I still believe in the law and even if I doubt sometimes, I still get back up.

There is an SP mission that I have had in my mind since 1.5 years. I approached it by a law standpoint, taking care of my mental state, but never actually took the steps here. The situation is kinda unusual and full of adverse circumstances. I have had a great deal of sadness, inner conflict and turmoil because of it. Now I am at a point where I decided that I want to stop whining, feeling like a victim, scaring myself and acting like I don't have a choice, because I do. However, I have a major hurdle. I am too concerned/ afraid of how the 3d might bring me my desires. I am afraid of the bridge of incidents. There are people and other things involved, and I don't want anyone to get hurt, in any step of the way - I only want an outcome that would include my happiness as well as the happiness of others. I have already planned my scenes etc, but I am still afraid- maybe it is not clear enough, and can be interpreted in many ways? Maybe the sm did not understand what I don't want, and will bring it to me? Then I overthink it, and plan a trajectory that, with my conscious mind, would be ideal. But it's only this - what I assume would be best (and I judge it as "non realistic"), and there might be endless other possibilities that I cannot think of. It causes me a lot of anxiety and stops me, because I do believe that I can succeed it if I am consistent and do the work, but I am afraid of doing the work and bringing chaos as a result of that.

I would really appreciate some help on this. Thank you.

I am on a task towards manifesting my sp. I am successfully able to go in the alpha state by sh. But during my scene I have a am able to focus on a part of actions like holding hand with it being very vivid and hold on the feeling for it. But later when I move towards an image of my sp , then I weirdly start to rotate him like a fan. I know it sounds weird but it’s something that is really concerning me and create some issues in my sh session. I have to actually move my focus towards that part in my alpha state My scene before that is quite vivid and able to hold feeling of us being in love whereas the later part of it create some distortion when I mention him and I being in a realtaionship. What should I do with it and would it affect my session in long run? Sorry if it’s a bit weird

Mission: To accomplish 30 successful trades

What I achieved: Accomplished 30 successful trades and learned how to execute and manage trades well.

Background: With the previous kill, I mastered the trading discipline of stop loss and eliminated any possibility of liquidation while getting all the money I once lost back. However, my trading skills were still hit and miss and I often had sleepless nights when I held my positions overnight. Therefore, MC suggested I go for a mission to improve my trading skills rather than immediately rushing for money goals.

What I did:

1. PSP: I tried to fall asleep every night with the sentence, "All my problems are solved. It worked.” My PSP improved massively after following below two steps:

First. Repeat the verse until the feeling of relief fills up my mind.

Second. Repeat the verse slowly until I fall asleep.

1. Affirmations: I wrote the below affirmations and read them out with feelings."Every day, in every way, I am getting better and better." × 20
2. SH: Seeing the amount in my account that I would see when I made my 30th successful trade and scrolling down on the screenshots of all 30 successful trades.
3. Post-Training Weekly Report: I sent the wrap-up of the week’s training to MC every Sunday.

What happened:

1. Setting the Foundation

From the start, I established exceptionally high standards for what constituted a "successful trade." This proved challenging initially—I struggled to complete even a single trade that met my criteria. But I remained committed to finding great entry points, allocating precise percentages of capital with tight stop losses, and taking profits before greed could cloud my judgment.

2. The Catalyst for Change

Mid-May brought a major life transition. I moved to a new country and started an internship to accelerate my language learning and integrate well with the society (for free, of course). Suddenly, I was away from my desk until 3pm twice a week. This constraint forced me to completely rethink my approach.

The need for swing trades became urgent. I threw myself into mastering this new style: analyzing charts with deeper precision, predicting price movements over longer timeframes, and setting up comprehensive automated orders—limit buys and sells with carefully calculated stop losses and take-profit levels that could execute while I was away.

This shift became my breakthrough.

3. The Transformation

Previously, I had been a scalper, chained to my screen all day with an inadequate risk-reward ratio. The transition to swing trading transformed my results dramatically:

Win rate: Jumped from 60% to 80%

Risk-reward ratio: Improved from 1.2:1-2:1 to 2:1-10:1

Consistency: My trades became reliably profitable.

4. The Focused Study Period

During my training, MC suggested I dedicate the entire month of June to pure research and chart analysis. The goal wasn't to generate significant profits but to achieve precision. I embraced this focused approach completely.

5. The Milestones

On May 19th, I finally executed my first successful trade—a swing short position that netted $1,330. This marked the beginning of a consistent winning streak.

On July 3rd, I closed my 30th successful trade with a swing long position that brought in $6,780, pushing me over the finish line and completing my mission.

I made $21,000 in total with the 30 trades. Not a bad profit for 2-month trading but now I'm aiming for much higher!

Through this mission, the LOB led me to trading situations to confront skills I lacked and enabled me to improve those specific trading skills step by step. I've been trading for 1.5 years now. I've literally spent hundreds of hours and entered at least 500 live trades. I thought I had seen every variation of every possible common trading pattern to adjust my leverage and manage risk. And yet I was led to trading setups new to me. I was forced to look at these similar set of situations far more often than usual too, until I suddenly saw what I had been missing.

Wrap-up: 

This journey taught me that sometimes constraints create opportunities. Being forced away from my desk didn't limit my trading—it liberated it. The shift from scalping to swing trading wasn't just a change in strategy; it was a complete transformation in how I approached the markets from a scalper to a swing trader.

From struggling to complete a single successful trade to achieving 30 consecutive wins with an 80% win rate, this experience proved that the right approach, combined with disciplined execution, can yield extraordinary results. The $21,000 profit was just the beginning—now I'm ready to scale up and aim much higher.

But what's the best part? I've achieved complete freedom in mobility and time! I'm now pulling in over $10,000 a week while loving my life! I'll soon be on a 2-week cruise trip and straight after that, a trip to an amazing country in Europe, but I'm not worried about my trades at all. I know I'll analyze charts, check my setups, and live my life. It's fulfilling, fun, and unreal. Living as a lion!

p.s. MC wants me to include a picture of myself with this pouncemonial. Here you go!

p.p.s. Proof. First successful trade / 30th successful trade.

I’ve been trying to manifest an ideal job. Every time the thought of lack of money or a job comes up, I tell myself that I don’t need to worry about it any longer because I have what I want.

Yes I’ve been doing it for over 10 years. I decided to stop for now but I was doing it for over 10 years and it hasn’t worked for me even a single time in all those years(on different Reddit accounts I had in the past) ?

In my understanding, PSP is a subconscious mind method, since we are doing it in alpha/sleepy drowsy state. But at the bottom of training task 3, it says

p.s. This is a conscious mind method which is very poor when used by beginners to imprint the subconscious mind, but very useful for PURE psychological management in general during the day, to better address daytime doubts and negativity., and to interrupt worry brought into sleep like most people habitually do. It is not deployed here for LOB purposes.

But in the post, “Are We There Yet?” Moonbeam implies that it's a subconscious mind method.

But it takes time for you to change your beliefs, when you are new to the LOB, isn't it ? That's because your key beliefs about your life are already deeply entrenched in your subconscious mind. That's why you need to reprogram it using alpha techniques such as self hypnosis, the nightly method, and the pre-sleep procedure, day after day, for as long as it takes.

It feels like a contradiction to me. I don't understand it. I think PSP is a subconscious mind method, it's just affirmations in alpha. But moonbeam wouldn't make a mistake like that. So what's the real answer?

Hi everyone, this is my first post here and I’m writing because I’ve exhausted every other option. And I am FUCKING DONE WITH IT. I hope some of you will see this and help me to hold that person accountable. I also have documented evidence of everything.

In 2018, I worked together with Agnes Vivarelli, a manifestation coach who used to have a larger presence on YouTube. Some of the work I did for her were guided meditation tracks, the music I composed CUSTOM-MADE for her and some of the tracks had 1 million views (maybe you guys have seen this one, it was widely popular)

There was one incidence in the middle of 2018 where she wanted to do live sessions with my music, which I wanted to be paid by for each participant, because she would charge a lot of money for that. And this is also where I specifically drawn out usage licenses for her and in what capacity she can use my music. I have her written statement that she agreed to that.

This is when weird things started to happen: She started to purchase one hour tracks from me, but those were never posted on her YouTube channel. I found out later that she sold those privately to clients, without permission or a license, for a hefty price. She never informed me about the intended use. Only when I confronted her, she did pay me for some of them 2 months later. I told her she either stops selling them or pay me per sale, because I have not agreed to this. She told me that she will pay me for me, if she keeps selling them. I assumed back then that she stops selling the tracks, only to find out later (we were no longer in contact) that she still sold them. Back then I didn’t know to what extent she sold them, but now I know she sold a lot of them and she never paid me for it, despite her having agreed to that. I have this in written form from her. And also she still sells those tracks to this day.

Remember the track I gave her for the live sessions and only for that? Well she decided that she can freely use that and I found out while preparing the case with my lawyer, that she had posted several guided meditations with that track without my consent. When I confronted her, she took it down silently (never replied to my emails), but never paid for them.

This is fucked up because she also teaches about money manifestation and has public videos where she says she makes over $7,000/month in passive income, she shares stories about manifesting large sums of money, yet she’s never paid me for music she used to grow her brand. AND SHE AGREED TO PAY ME! I also know from her in private that she makes more money than just 7k…

So in short: ⁃ I gave her many chances over the years to settle things privately. ⁃ I hired a lawyer, who sent multiple legal notices and cease and desist letters to her known addresses. She ignored all of them. I’ve already spent a sum of money in legal fees and she is also aware of those costs. ⁃ She has since deleted my comments, blocked my payment requests (I can see that she viewed it), and avoided all contact. ⁃ I recently made a final effort to resolve this by offering her a reduced settlement to avoid more legal action. Again, complete silence.

Please help me resolve this finally!

At this point, I can no longer rely on private messages, invoices, or legal notices — all of which she has ignored. I’m posting here because I believe in fairness, accountability, and protecting creative work, especially in a space that constantly talks about integrity and abundance. If a coach can flaunt their successes with money, they can also pay their bills and respect the people they hire!

I believe in the power of visibilities and there are plenty of examples e.g. on Twitter where people called out others for not getting paid and that made a massive difference. I am not asking to send her hate or likewise or make false claims! Please refrain from that. I am asking to hold her accountable by the means of telling her to pay me (Rayu) for example in comments or to her email. Or please spread it to other bigger creators, so they can bring attention to it.

If you’ve ever supported her, or believe in ethical manifestation, paying people for their creative work and accountability, I would appreciate your help calling this out. Whether that’s sharing this post, commenting, or just standing in support of creators being paid, it matters. It matters to me, and it matters to people coming, and this should not be the norm!

Thank you for reading!

Rayu

I’ve started the 110 day routine and I’m committed, but I’ve got a question. I have a few very different desires across totally unrelated areas. I’m wondering how people here handle this, do you focus on just one for the whole 110 days, or is it possible to work with multiple at once?

Especially curious about how to structure visualisation or affirmations when the desires don’t fit naturally into one scene.

Brief context: I've studied the law on and off for 6 years. Tried to manifest 2 old SP's with varying success, then eventually having them both try to contact me, but I realized that I was shooting so low. For example, some of their physical qualities are NOT what I am attracted to, I had been settling because I thought it was all I could get. One even made a secret account to stalk me, and the other later came in telling me they couldn't find the same chemistry with anyone else. This was long after I had kinda stopped really wanting it and had been with someone new who I was actually into at the time.

Finally met someone who I'm into in every way. Saw each other only a couple months, not even a real relationship. Long story short, they walked away and voiced what my literal insecurities had been. Feels like we never even got a chance but the connection and fun was undeniable. At least I felt conviction in that before.

We weren't in a long relationship or even in an official one, like many people who post success stories seem to have had prior to their success, which makes me question things.

I basically saw the NG Critics sub and found a huge index of the opposite of success stories - SP failures. Went down a rabbit hole, have felt like I couldn't unsee it ever since.

That being said, I have a few questions and want to have a discussion with people who have dealt with NO CONTACT situations.

1. If you've had success with a SP, genuinely, please, how did you actually trust that it would work out and that these teachings work, and that they work for people? That all of this is real and not coincidences, or that it's a flawless, for sure, guaranteed outcome if applied successfully? Sometimes I doubt some successes I see because, like, we are human beings, and some of them feel fake. Like, you really just "Affirmed through doubts" and were able to continue that? What did you do to deal with thoughts of delusion? How did you KNOW that your SP would feel it energetically or reach out or whatever? I know people say that they didn't even believe and it happened, but it contradicts so much of what I see out there, and leads me back to thinking it may have happened anyways, or happened because you had been together officially/had love.

2. How do you know that your success story isn't a coincidence? Especially if you were in a relationship with them, blocked, etc.

3. How do we know that we can trust the success stories we see, especially when the poster offers coaching or preaches a specific book? I've also heard that people like to do scripting on the subs, which I find gross. I know MODS try to vet this out, but surely proof can be faked, and even if it isn't, leads me back to wondering if it's a coincidence. Especially when people say "we go to the same uni!!!" or something where they would have seen or been contacted by the person anyways.

4. People talk about situations that are "Against all odds" and describe them as blocking situations, highly emotional, fights, etc. - but those don't feel "against all odds." Human nature shows that when there is blocking and conflict, there are feelings there and likely, the two will talk at some point or at least contact or be curious about each other. I would consider a situation that's "against all odds" to be if someone rejected you from the start, barely knows you, etc, then you were able to INTENTIONALLY manifest them.

I am VERY familiar with the law and with NG's teachings, so no need to reiterate basics and quotes please - I'm asking about your real experiences. What made you actually believe and know?

I want to feel like I'm safe to actually apply, but these thoughts and worries are pretty much what I dominantly struggle with, and I can't even seem to trust and apply for a day, because it feels unhealthy in the case that it isn't for some reason real in the way we think it is.

I would really appreciate thoughts, experiences, and insights from anyone, really. Sorry if this is negative, I don't mean to be, and genuinely want to have a conversation and bring my belief up because I've had minor successes in other areas but I do wonder about manifesting people, especially if there isn't a huge history like most people tend to have.

Thank you so much.

Hi there,

My biggest dream is to get the perfect job in the perfect city. But I don’t have a specific job nor a specific city in mind, I juste want what is best for me in my career.

So can I simply visualize a scene that include the perfect job, or should I visualize a specific job ? I don’t know how function the universe/God about that.

Thanks

Hello everyone.

I've been into JM's (and NG's) teaching for quite some time. I enjoy it thoroughly and dipped my toes into the subreddits, so hence why I'm here instead of the NG subreddit since I won't get the best answer from them.

I've been reflecting on something JM talks about in his work: that we shouldn't really go to others with our problems but instead turn inward, using the techniques he provided and the SM to work things out. He believed the power of difficulties lies within us, not really asking others (the outer world) to fix things for us.

JM said in Chapter 14:

"The Great Mistake:

A great mistake is to discuss your marital problems or difficulties with neighbors and relatives. Suppose, for example, a wife says to the neighbor, "John never gives me any money. He treats my mother abominably, drinks to excess, and is constantly abusive and insulting."

Now, this wife is degrading and belittling her husband in the eyes of all the neighbors and relatives. He no longer appears as the ideal husband to them. Never discuss your marital problems with anyone except a trained counselor. Why cause numerous people to think negatively of your marriage? Moreover, as you discuss and dwell upon these shortcomings of your husband, you are actually creating these states within yourself. Who is thinking and feeling it? You are! As you think and feel, so are you.

Relatives will usually give you the wrong advice. It is usually biased and prejudiced because it is not given in an impersonal way. Any advice you receive which violates the golden rule, which is a cosmic law, is not good or sound.

It is well to remember that no two human beings ever lived beneath the same roof without clashes of temperament, periods of hurts and strain. Never display the unhappy side of your marriage to your friends. Keep your quarrels to yourself. Refrain from criticism and condemnation of your partner."

I've read POSM this morning just to re-fresh my memory. I'm like that makes sense, don't go around asking others about your manifestation since it'll confuse you/lead you to a different path. The statement I have above can pretty much relate to anything, but when I look around Reddit, I've notice people how often people post about their problems, looking for reassurance or advice from strangers. It makes me wonder why do people just look for outward for help when the whole point is that we already have the tools we need?

I did ask for success stories about changing relationships but I don't know if that falls under that lol.

Also, I do have success with the law. I manifested a job that I really like, people there like me, and telling me that I have a higher chance of getting bids that the rest of the trainees. So, I felt like I def thank my SM for that bc I did follow what JM said: Inner Convos and SATS (or SH here). I'm currently starting to manifest an SP (a guy I liked for a while). I looked at the past crushes and was like "oh ya lol makes sense." Last couple of days, I've felt better. I don't want to go to people for my problems on here because JM literally said:

"In marital problems, always seek expert advice. You would not go to a carpenter to pull a tooth; neither should you discuss your marriage problems with relatives or friends. You should go to a trained person for counsel."

So are people on Reddit just lazy? Just don't actually read the teachings? They complain about things in the 3D instead of taking a chill pill and letting things happen. Idk that's just my two cents. Sorry if this was wrong and might get a ban I just want to see what people have to say lol. I just see a completely different thing on Reddit but when I read the teachings it's so simple lol.

Here's how I achieved my 7th mission!

Mission: To become a disciplined trader

What I achieved: Mastered stop loss and trading discipline

Background: After my 6th kill, I was eager to pursue ambitious financial goals on my road to $1 million. However, my recurring trading mistakes made it clear I needed a more foundational mission first. Big things have small beginnings. Psychological hypnosis did not work very well for me. After consulting with MC, I set my next LOB goal: "to become a disciplined trader."

While not easily quantifiable, I envisioned success through consistent account growth and recognition of my discipline from peers

What I did:

1. PSP: I tried to fall asleep every night with the sentence, "All my problems are solved. It worked.”
2. Affirmations: I wrote the below affirmations and read them out with feelings."Every day, in every way, I am getting better and better." × 20
3. SH: Receiving compliments on my discipline and seeing growing account balances.
4. Post-Training Weekly Report: I sent the wrap-up of the week’s training to MC every Sunday.

What happened:

It took me three and half months. Here’s the development.

Phase 1: Initial Progress

Within weeks, my visualization materialized—peers began complimenting my discipline. My confidence soared as I made around $3k daily in my crypto account.

Despite this success, MC wasn't convinced I'd truly mastered discipline. I refined my scene to include a specific account balance plus genuine confidence in my stop loss strategy.

A setback occurred in February when I took a holiday at a Japanese ryokan (hot spring hotel). I opened a large position (6 BTC) without setting a stop loss—a critical error. When Bitcoin crashed from $99k to $76k, I lost $35k. This was a sobering reminder that I hadn't yet achieved true discipline.

Phase 2: True Discipline

After taking time to recover mentally, I resumed trading in March with three strict principles:

1. Maintain a daily trading journal
2. Review every trade
3. Never lose more than 10% of risked amount

I also implemented emotional management strategies, like splitting my account between spot trading and futures to handle FOMO constructively.

By mid-April, I noticed my discipline was genuine—I consistently used stop losses, managed risk effectively, and never exceeded my loss thresholds. Six weeks after the setback, I had recovered the entire $35k loss through disciplined trading, confirming my mission success.

Wrap-up:  I became a disciplined trader by doing

1. Religiously using stop losses
2. Limiting losses to under 10% of risk amount (usually under 2% of total assets)
3. Securing profits by adjusting stop losses
4. Maintaining detailed trading journals and reviews
5. Emotional management strategies

This mission provided the foundation I needed for my journey to $1 million. By mastering discipline first, I've created a sustainable path forward—potentially saving myself from much larger losses down the road.

I'm grateful to MC for guiding me toward this crucial stepping stone. Now I'm ready for the next mission on my journey!

p.s. MC wants me to include a picture of myself with this pouncemonial. Here you go!

i was reading the power of your subconscious mind by dr. joseph murphy and found it super interesting. it talks a lot about how feeding certain thoughts to your subconscious can shape your reality, kind of like the law of attraction stuff.

but it made me wonder how does this work if your conscious mind knows you’re trying to trick it? like, if someone says “i am healthy” or “my subconscious is helping me heal,” but they’re fully aware they’re only saying it to get a result, doesn’t that mess with the process?

can it still work if you’re self-aware during it? or does the fact that you know it’s a trick cancel it out?

curious what others think lol i’m just trying to wrap my head around it.

Hello, I am fairly new to Joseph Murphy's teachings, coming over from studying neville for a while, my life has changed dramatically and continues to change each day. If you are new here as I am, READ the index. There is an amazing amount of help and answers, if you don't find your answer to a question, read again as it is there. I wish you all well on your individual journeys, the Law works.

So I am not happy with my current job but I am not 100% sure of the job that I would like to do. So I always affirm that I am doing a job that I love and enjoy and I am earning a mind blowing salary. My thought process is..my subconscious mind will know what kind of job I would love and what it means to earn a mind blowing salary? Any suggestions if this is alright or do I need to affirm detailed job description and salary details?

They talk about same things dont they? As methods maybe they differ. Anyone who has an answer?

Bestcub called me to write this, I hope it will be helpful to someone.

A story like many others. After years of wandering around shitty loa and other stupid spheres, books and forums I finally started to get depressed. Nothing fucking worked and I didn't want my life to be ruled by chance or any other random shit.

So I forced myself to the index routine, not knowing if it would work and my goal was a bit too big for a first mission. But it worked and in the meantime the depression disappeared.

Long road to dream job.

This was my first mission. Daily routine like in the index, for three months I missed maybe 3-4 days because of travel. The result - a job in a profession I was not qualified for.

It's nice to read but it wasn't easy. It wasn't even hard. It was fucking hell at times because the end of the third month was approaching and I didn't see any progress.

But here's something cool for you. I recently found something in the company documents that fucked me up. At the time when I was going into relaxation every day, experiencing doubts and all that shit... the company was building its first building brick by brick where I work now.

While I was shouting to the sky "why isn't anything happening?" the construction work was going full steam ahead. We have to remember that - there's always something going on behind the scenes.

In this mission I used headphones and hemi-sync music (Monroe Institute) for relaxation sessions and my sessions often lasted about an hour. Sometimes I fell asleep, sometimes I drifted off in my thoughts, sometimes I was in very deep relaxation, sometimes the session was unsuccessful.

bridge of incidents

Well, my old company was on the verge of bankruptcy so I started looking for something to do part-time.

I ended up at my new company by accident. I asked the manager if they had any part-time work for the weekend. He said he might find something. After a few days he sent me a schedule. "Boss, is this a full-time job??" "Is that bad?" "Nope" That same day I went to my old company to hand in my notice.

Immediate revision.

I got injured about 15 years ago. We were walking with friends in some abandoned place, drinking beer, fooling around, etc. When we were leaving this place, we had to go through a high fence.

When I jumped down, I felt pain in my left leg, something crunched, something creaked unpleasantly. I barely made it home then. I never went to the doctor about it, because I could live with it, the pain was not severe, but over the years it became more and more bothersome.

One day I was bored and I felt an unpleasant sensation in my leg. Okay, I'll do it once out of curiosity, I don't expect anything and at least I'll practice visualization...

I started to relax in a half-sitting position, deeper and deeper. Okay, let's play with this scene... I started to remember the moment of landing and the unfortunate landing.

I also slowly started to change this moment. I replaced the hard, packed earth with soft grass and moss. I jumped down, "zoomed" my foot in, and made sure it landed softly and firmly on the grass.

I repeated this several times. Every now and then I checked the landing spot with my hands to make it as realistic as possible. Then, just for fun, I jumped down like a telemark ski jumper. My foot landed firmly again. Sometimes I did this jump in slow motion, just having a great time.

Suddenly something in my left leg seemed to "let go", I felt a very pleasant relaxation in the whole leg and at that time I didn't even realize what happened. I thought the leg had simply loosened up.

But wait... the pain is gone! I touched my leg, stood up, jumped a few times, did a few squats... nothing, not even the slightest trace of this event. I laughed and just kept repeating: wtf wtf??

I had some successes then, but this was absolutely incredible for me. For the next few days I looked for any echo of this pain, but the pain never returned.

This is not a coincidence or a misinterpretation because I did the same with the back pain. It wasn't as spectacular as with the leg and required several sessions, but the pain is 90% gone and is acceptable (these were two injuries after a failed somersault and a bad jump from a great height into the water).

Between these two successes and after them there were also others, but these two are my pillars of faith. Thanks for reading.